I have never ever felt so terrible in my secondary school life before. I have fallen real deep this time. I received results today and they are fuckin unsatisfactory. Even my best science chemistry has fallen behind behind. Whenever i faced e teachers now, somehow e inner voice in me will start to tremble.
No wonder i have been having nightmares lately, and my right eye has been twitching since the morning. It is a bad omen, something is going to happen. Nothing of such sort has happened to me before, i have always performed allryts, and now there is a drastic change. I feel so tired, mentally tired.
I do not know how to break news to my parents. I feel as if i am going to snap soon, just like a rubber band. I know they wouldnt believe whatever i say and they would just look at the grades. My mind is now spinning, and yet tonight i have to get ready the edusave money together with $600 cash.
All i can say is i am sorry, if they would like to hear it. Whatever they wanted, i tried doing le, i know i have let my teachers down, no use shedding tears now. I want but i cant seem to do it, now even crying seems difficult.
Sry to ren and han, i left because i really do not wanna sao3 xing4. Perhaps both of u are much luckier than me, at least u have As.
I would never forget this for a while, let it continue haunting me till i found peace. Wish me luck for a maths and hcl and phy which i know i am going to die.
