Hi, this is a full of angst post so if you dun like the language and stuff here pls do not read.
First up i am damn pissed off with wordpress cause it fucking deleted all my previous entry which i spent like an hour or so typing out. TSK. I shall type them another day again.
Secondly, this bloody week has been my off days but guess what? i caught the common flu. I think my mum passed it to me and now almost the whole family is sick. Due to me helping out as an ambassador at the army open house on friday, i have mon off, tues and wed i applied off and thurs is my cohesion day. So i literally book in on thursday night and bookout on fri. But because of the flu, i am feeling dizzy and weak all day and fucking restless. Plus i have to eat drowsy medicine which make me feel worse. I haven been doing anything much for the past few days except sleeping and trying to nurse back to health. Gosh, this is killing me.
Thirdly, i just got shouted unreasonably by my father for nothing again. It is like this. I was using my laptop and connected to the TV in front using HDMI cables in the afternoon so that i can watch my funshion videos. He was working but out of a blue he came home and i sian half alr. He said he was sick so he came home. Den my mum who is supposed to be working oso said she was sick and came home. Wah, i almost died sia. I thought i can have the whole house to myself for the whole afternoon but now with them around there are so many restrictions. Firstly, they complain i on my volume too loud, so i had to turn it down. Grr. Den later say why so messy here and there i am like wtf alr. Then later on, dad told me to go downstairs help him buy newspaper, i came up and then he shouted at me why i leave the wires so messy on the ground. Wah seriusly i turn red liao, i said i went down to help him buy newspaper of cause haven keep the wires la. Den he kbkp. Its like wtf la, what did i do wrongg sia? Fucking regular, just because you are sick and tired doesnt gives you any fucking right to kb me for nothing. And i did you a favour somemore wtf. He is just fucking petty la, nowadays if i ask him fetch me back to camp he also kbkp. Lucky got zongli for the ride sia. Then that time keep kb me cause i not in university say why i so lously and shit. Just STFU seriously? Oh, the ironic thing is that i happen to chance upon my dad’s O level results last time and gosh, they are like #$%#%. Still kb me for fuck.
Staying at home really sucks. I got no privacy no freedom. Its fuckup. Sometimes i wish i am in camp. Well, i am so gonna stay at hall in university next year whatever it takes. I am not going to stay in this home and study where it is not conducive at all. Oh, my second sis is like telling my parents i shd not stay at all cause i will play and that last time she did not stay in hall so i should not too. So stupid. My house is totally not conducive at all. Still rmb during Alevels while i was already struggling with my studies, when i came home i dun even have inner peace. Becuase i do not have a room i need to use the studyroom for my studies and end up i need to compete the table with my second sis. Worst still, my parents switch on the television in the living room so loud that i cannot concentrate. Did i feedback to them? Oh sure i did but nothing is done. Btw if you are wondering, i have no room at all. I sleep with my parents so yeah, can imagine how fuckup it is. I cant wait to move out of this fucking place.
PS. Sorry if i use too many f words inside. I am just feeling pissed and this is testimont to how i am feeling now.
