ok. I think i am very bad. I do not feel close to my family at all.
I tried my best to communicate but i guess it didnt work out.
This probably happened at a very young age, thus when i grew up i feel so weird.
I dun dare to share with them secrets nor confide in them.
I used to be v close to them whereby i will share with them what i do in sch, wat i eat, who are my friends etc.
But ever since quite some time ago, after quarrels here and dere, i stopped doing that.
Now, i hate to say this but we seem so far apart now.
On the surface to ppl , we may seem normal and alright but deep beneath its not the case.
I also duno why i have the courage to post this up.
Its not to let ppl know oh i have such a sour relationship, i jus need to get things off my chest.
I am going army on sat.
Maybe this is a good start.
When i look at others whose brothers or sisters are on close terms and their parents reallie close to them, i feel envious.
Yup i mus agree my parents dote on me, they provide me with the financial strength to buy stuffs. But sharing secrets? nahh.
People say that communication is the key to building good relationships.
I have alwyas believed in that.
It is so weird i can do that with many others but not with my own family.
Is my problem right?
I think the number of quarrels and unhappiness we have > happiness.
I think i am a failure at family relationships. : (
A levels results arre coming out on friday. To be frank i am reallie stressed abt it.
I just dun wan to disappoint myself and of cuz my parents. I reallie tried my best.
And now there is this family shit here.
Come on God save me.
I am full of angst now.
P.S. I am just typing how i feel, if u dun like it dun read.
Bye.
