I am feeling tired, physically and mentally... esp these few mths, seriously. My prelim 1 results arent good, that explains my one step to doom. Because of it, my parents came down hard on me. VEry hard. Everyday, once i come home, they will surely ask how much i study, trying to keep track of my study plans. For every 5 min if i am doin my hw, they will shout at me, tellin me to stop doing and study, for god damn sake, i cant even have peace at home.
They dun like me to go for nyt study, always questioning about the usefulness of it, i must admit nyt study isnt for me to study quietly, but i managed to clear a lot of my work. Everytime they come and fetch me, we will always quarrel. In the past, i will outalk them, but after spending about 15 hrs in sch, you will realise that you wun even have the energy to do so. Why we quarrel? Again is because of the question, Ah boy, did u study?
I envy others, their parents dun show "care" the same way as mine does. In sec 1, they emphasized i must study hard since i did badly for PSLE. Then in Sec 2 they say it is streaming so it is highly impt, in sec 3 they say i better work hard cuz of O levels, in sec 4, they just unleash full force on me.
They always say they are concerned, i argued using other people parents as an example. They argued that other people's parents dun give a damn of their child. WTH. Biased perspective, wrong mindset, which often makes me feel irritated.
I know i am condemnin my parents here, but i just wanna vent out all my thoughts for these few mths, i am seriously not feeling good.
Tired/exhausted/lethargic/irritated/moody/emo---> because of "caring" parents.
Hope that my physics will be able to improve further, i cannot let myself down.
New goals, new motivation--> because of you. After Os =) haha.
