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full of angst

2011-02-27T20:14:00.003+08:00

ok. I think i am very bad. I do not feel close to my family at all.

I tried my best to communicate but i guess it didnt work out.

This probably happened at a very young age, thus when i grew up i feel so weird.

I dun dare to share with them secrets nor confide in them.

I used to be v close to them whereby i will share with them what i do in sch, wat i eat, who are my friends etc.

But ever since quite some time ago, after quarrels here and dere, i stopped doing that.

Now, i hate to say this but we seem so far apart now.

On the surface to ppl , we may seem normal and alright but deep beneath its not the case.

I also duno why i have the courage to post this up.

Its not to let ppl know oh i have such a sour relationship, i jus need to get things off my chest.

I am going army on sat.

Maybe this is a good start.

When i look at others whose brothers or sisters are on close terms and their parents reallie close to them, i feel envious.

Yup i mus agree my parents dote on me, they provide me with the financial strength to buy stuffs. But sharing secrets? nahh.

People say that communication is the key to building good relationships.

I have alwyas believed in that.

It is so weird i can do that with many others but not with my own family.

Is my problem right?

I think the number of quarrels and unhappiness we have > happiness.

I think i am a failure at family relationships. : (

A levels results arre coming out on friday. To be frank i am reallie stressed abt it.

I just dun wan to disappoint myself and of cuz my parents. I reallie tried my best.

And now there is this family shit here.

Come on God save me.

I am full of angst now.

P.S. I am just typing how i feel, if u dun like it dun read.

Bye.

Valentine's Day 2011

2011-02-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

Wishing everyone a Happy Valentine's Day as well as Happy Friendship Day!!

Valentine day is definitely not only for lovers but also a great time for catching up with yr friends!!

Met Lingying for dinner after work. Has been quite long since we last chatted! Quite awwesome night i must say! hahaha. She make good fake flowers! HAHAHA!

Jus got home not too long ago too. Tired out.

Tml is last day at IPTO. Hope the buffet lunch is awwesome! : ))) CAnt wait!

Lastly, HAPPY SWEET 18 TO VALENLYN CHUA SI HARN. :)))!

2011!!

2011-02-13T21:08:00.003+08:00

I haven blogged for like 2.5 months. This shall be my first post from 2011.

Well, many things happened within these months, both happy as well as unhappy ones.

I managed to survive on 2 jobs! One as a Pastry Kitchen Assistant at Conrad Hotel! and the other is admin at Public Trustee URA. Many ppl said i was crazy and i received many negative critics both from my family and some others. But who cares. I choose what i want man! I have alr ended my hotel work, and i am about to end my admin work on tuesday bah. AHAH cause there will be a CNY buffet celebration for staff! AWesome can! When i came there was a christmas party! Now when i go dere will be cny celebration! so awwesome! HAHAH.

On a lighter note, i managed to keep in close contact with my secondary school friends and JC friends. Many outings/ dinner sessions and they were <3!> However, i have lost a good friend too! If you happen to chance upon this blog, I would jus like to say, i am sorry.

I also attended orientation 2011 last week, the food was nt bad LOL! And the pretty meet ups with the fellow 2010 OGLs and SCs was great too. Oh yea! LAst time dancing mass dance and fun dance!! Damn fun la! ahahah I think i reallie like PJC a lot!!! Went back to visit my chers most whom said i changed a lot! Do I ?? AHHA.

CNY celebration wass a blast for me too...speaking of which! I reallie need to exercise LOL! Jus ran 2.4 jus now. Felt so cui. Shitz how to survive army next month! HAAHHAHA! Many of my friends have gone in alr. I wonder how are they naoo man.

I couldnt rmb all the nitty gritty details but i guess these are the ones which i can summarise in this post. Today i slpt for almost 15 hours with intervals in betweeen. I guess i let my mind went wild for a moment and jus felt that life was aimlesss all of a sudden. So foolish of me. 20 more days to army! ITS time to train!!! AHHAAH! Kinda egggcited for it too!

I guess the next start of my life has jus begun only.

Its valentine day tml! sooo enjoy everyone!!

OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

2010-12-03T11:26:00.002+08:00

See my title aboveee. A levels is finally over. yippie hurarays!!

Have been busy going out these few days but i realised it can be damn boring too. Every morning during As period, i wake up feeling mundane cuz all i do is study, den eat den slp. It has practically become a routine period for me already. Nao when As end. omg i jus duno what to do for the whole day. Yea i have waited for this day for damn long already. But duno why when As ended on thursday, felt kinda sian.

Well, the class guys celebrated eehong's bdae on tues, we went pizza hut to eat. OMG i tell u the cheese in the pizza is damn scary, i swear never to eat cheese from now on. LOL.

Den after bio mcq ytd, we went to jude house for ps3/ wii session! DAmn fun but damn tiring. HAHA it was my first time playing wii though and im a complete noob at that. LOL. At night we went to mr lim's house for steamboat! Thanks mr lim for the kind invitation. His house is damn spacious lo, got one corner can medidate one. But halfwayy thru steamboat, sth happened.

A BLACKOUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. LOL

Mr lim was kinda flustered for one second. LOL

Overall it was good. Went home around 10 45 with julian's father fetching me liang and da. Thankks.

inside joke of the night from amanda. " Two fatty bom bom walkin on street. when onlookers accidentally touch you they feel oily. WTF sia.

yayyyyyyy today's gonna be another fun day. AHAHHA. Gonnna have my long awaited koi from valynnnnn later!!!! whooooooos. At night got movie marathon at PJC . Yippie shiokkkk.

last 3 days : (

2010-11-29T20:23:00.002+08:00

hmm. back to blogging again.

Today marks the end of the A levels for the physics students. Well grats for them. 3 more days and it'll be my turn too. I have this sickennin feeling within me that tell me to relax now. hmm but after today's practice mcq, i know my standard arent there yet. So frustrating. Well, i think if not for the compulsory mcq practice i guess i will still be snoring somewhere at home. But its damn sian.

damn siannnnnnn.

on a lighter note, visited IT fair at expo with julian ytd. was an eyeopener for me though. The things were pretty cheap. And its hellload some packed. keep kena pushed. hate the crowd sia. Saw quite a number of pj friends too like jessie, melody, chun kit etc while walking. I also visited Valenlyn and amanda's booth! Couldnt recognise them LOL/ They reallie look like professionals! Hahha. If i have a chance i oso wanna work at IT fair next year. Pay is Srsly good!

Haiz, Tml is just gonna be a mundane day. Totally hate it. : (

kay i shall be a hardworking boy and go practise tys nao.

Ciaos!

Insomnia

2010-11-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

sian, couldnt get to sleep properly at night these few days

mind caught up with many stuffs.

feeling so confused all of a sudden.

if only god can give me an answer in my slp, i wouldnt be so frustrated.

kay i shouldnt think so much.

probably a good night slp will allow me to forget all my troubles.

these few days been a total nightmare.

feel super sick of studying too. But still mus continue.

kay i go slp nao.

now is 230 am. god plssssssssssssss direct me a way : (

pissed ttm!

2010-10-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

i am very angry. Very pissed. Broiled anger. whole day kept inside me, now to let it out.

jus got home not too long ago. i shall blog. i always blog when i am unhappy!

today i woke up happily going to school.

when i got to sch den i walk into class den they told me wat happen.

i was stunned.

i sit down, recollecting the moments if i have said those stuff.

nope nothing.

The only thing i rmb is during a random conversation i mentioned about my cher not havin a lot of lessons with us during sch hours cuz got a lot of stuff on.

yeah thats what i said wat.

why in a random chat oso can lead to the teacher knowing?

human beings are such sophisticated complex creatures.

They are also so scary, they can misinterpret your words, your actions, into sth else which you fuckingly dun have that intention.

i dun think i did anything wrong. i din badmouth my cher, i din say anything bad. i am jus stating a pure fact. and its a random conversation!

if u know me, i am someone who hates being accused of sth that i din do.

super pissed.

Spoiled my entire good day! sheng qi!

emo?

2010-09-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

I jus cannot believe how my parents can rub salt into my wound.

I dun need any lectures from you. I know what it is best for me.

Call me complacent or conceited, i dun give a damn shit.

I already gave my best this time round, do you know how i feel when i see the fucking score?

I had enough from sch, well, i did studied in sch jus now, felt so tired, came back i thought i can rest a while but yea/

How i wish my emotions can be like eehong, cry it out.

I guess most ppl mus be thinkin, wow this epic mugger mug so hard results still lidat?

yah, ytd i alr say regardless of what results i get, i wun emo, i am jus angry. angry at no one but myself.

Well, from today, heck care wat others say, i am going to study even harder. If i study 1 time i cannot get it, i will study 10 times, 1o times cant get it 100 times until the stuff sinks into me.

I may be slow, but i believe i will create a miracle for myself.

Its in me, i know it.

impending doomsday

2010-09-28T21:04:00.002+08:00

I know that i am not perfect, but i keep trying : ) Cause thats what i said i would do from the start.

Been listening to this song for damn long and i aint sick of it.

Well, tml is results day.

Mentally prepared for it.

No hard feelings cause i gave my best.

Even if so suay i got anythin phail i will phail with pride : )

Slacked enuff these few days. Muggin spree will start tml, and for the last 6 weeks.

I am scared

To tell you i am not i am lying.

Cuz make it or break it.

Miss it and lose it.

I shall slp early tonight, cannot slp oso mus slp, to get body clock adjusted.

Packing up my notes, hope to make my table clean and span.

Shall read percy jackson to slp tonight.

All the best to me tml.

ciaos!

Tired ttm!

2010-09-28T00:09:00.005+08:00

I FUCKING LOVE TODAY.

I WENT OUT TO SENTOSA.

FIRST TIME SWIM IN WATER(LAST TIME I SCARED)

FIRST TIME SUN TANNING

FIRST TIME PLAY LAO YING ZHUA XIAO JI IN WATER

FIRST TIME HAD SO MUCH FUN IN SENTOSA.

LOVE CINDY'S QUOTE, ITS NOT THE PLACE, ITS THE PPL, I HAVE SO MUCH FUN WITH HUIJIE, JUDE, EEHONG, BELLE, DA, QIANMEI, RONG, ANNA, HAZEL CINDY! HOPE I DIN MISS ANYONE OUT.

LOVE THEM TTTM.

AFTER SENTOSA WENT VIVO TO MAKAN.

THEN SHOPPED WITH THEM

THEN WE WANTED TO GO CHOMP CHOMP

BUT DEN WHEN WE WERE SO HAPPY, CHOMP CHOMP WASNT OPEN, OMFG WTSF. DUE TO PEST CONTROL. SIAN MAX.

SO WE HAD SERRANGOON CHICKEN RICE IN A RESTAURANT. ATE TILL FULL FULL.

CHATTED AND GOSSIPPED, GOOD LAUGH ALL THE WAY.

THANKS BELLE MUM FOR FETCHIN ME TO STATION.

HOME NAO, GONNA SLP AFTER POSTING THIS.

VAL CHUA'S CREATION, I DIN NOE CAN ENLARGE! DAMN I WAN TOO!^^

THIS IS HOW I LOOK LIKE AFTER BEING UNDER THE SCORCHIN SUN! !$#$@!%

LASTLY HAPPY BDAE TO YAN!

SLP NAO BYE.

ENDED

2010-09-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

Gosh i am feelin damn effed up now. I got this sudden moodswing, damn it. stupid brain of mine. What isit thinkin sia! eff.

Anyways, prelims ended today :) never felt awesome for damn long alr. After prelims had so much fun with jude, hong, hj, belle, da, qm and lr and mayvin(contractor). We bballed, den went to vivo city to watch chen zhen which is awesome. Den shoppin! Awesome jokes cracked, hell in a lifetime since i been so happy. These classmates of mine are reallie awesome! i am reallie glad i came to pjc and know them man! ahha!

Nao, i am feeling like effed up due to my stupid brain. Duno what i am thinkin sia.

Slp is the solution

Bye.

2 more days!

2010-09-20T16:07:00.002+08:00

Its jus 2 more days to end of heavy papers!

i reallie cant wait!

I grown quite sick of studying eh

Today's bio paper was okay, except plannin i never complete and one 3m question in front, hopefully its okay.

I felt quite disgusted when i read sth jus now.

i am havin a bit of moodswing nowadays, screw prelims for screwing up my life.

Ahh likes i dont care if you hate me, i dont live to fucking please you. on More Likes! ❥. (Y)(Y)(Y)!

This phrase on fb reallie made my day, makes life simpler aint they!?

Alrights, i slacked too much, gonna pia chem now, planning here i come. I want an A for CHEM. PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Good luck to all having papers tml (: Hang in dere.

BAD DAY AWESOME NIGHT

2010-09-18T12:08:00.002+08:00

Well, from the post title, it means that the 2 papers i had ytd was damn screweed up;.

The hardest math paper that was set in pjc, saw on fb edison said it was harder than hwa chong and aj one, sian, why pjc set so tough!? hai.

Den after math, all of us were damn drained liao, when cse comes, whatever i can think of i jus spam. Pls, let me scrape through cse. My essays arh, no time for p1 and p2. Sian half. Hopefully can scrape. Cuz i was damn drained le, super bad combination ytd.

Nvm, jus like what belle always says, prelims nia, ahhaha.

I also not intendin use results apply scholarship.

Well, at night was more fun, cuz i din touch any books at all for ytd, i had an awesome time with several ppl. First up was belle, judes and eehong, our mass conversation was fckin awesome. LOL, i have the conversation still stored inside my lappie. Funny ttm. Our new gang name is call A . A. Go figure out yourself. AHHAHA. Second was chattin with awesome valyn. Another joke of the century. HAHAHA. These ppl reallie made my day man. they rock!

Alright today is marked for studying bio. Applications here i come!

ps: cant wait for prelims to end, i know A levels approaching, but i jus want prelims to end pls! I hope A levels easier than prelims!

Chem p3

2010-09-15T14:05:00.002+08:00

Just came home from chem p3 not too long ago.

The paper waas managable, but somehow i made some grave mistakes. I need to clean my eyes liao, damn. xibei kok eye. Time management is still an issue, i shall choose qns with less calculations next time.

Hopefully my A or B is still within reach. I need to work extra hard for p1 and p2 in order to get them.

Cse and math on friday. I dread it. I promised song i will try my best liao. I dun wan to break my promise to her. Ok, i will practise math tonight!

But right now, cse bah.

Had a bad night ytd, couldnt sleep well. Damn, i am havin insomia man. Siann, mus be exam stress. Kept turnin in bed. The feeelin sucks.

I am tryin to fight fatigue now, cuz my eyes are closin.

No i can do it!

Till then.

PRELIMS TERROR

2010-09-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

Okay, i am not supposed to be here cuz i said i will be on hiatus until A levels. But i seriously got an urge to blog. I just need a platform to vent out my thoughts.

Now the time is 12.40, i am gonna blog about what happened ytd. Just had bio prelims, damn tired out. I realised ques 1 mistake when they collected my paper, feel so angry with myself. Never had i once complete a bio paper. What makes things worse is that i studied super hard and that goes for anyone taking bio, and then the questions that came out are on topics that we din expect it to be. IT is totally not regurgitative type. Its like applications la. And its a god damn 2 hour paper, with 7 structured and 1 essay. I was grasping for breath while trying to pen down my answers. Theres no time to think, everything has to be at your fingertips. Let alone say no timne to check answers. Okay la, i have to say, bio is not my forte. It has not been my strong subject all along, nvmm i will work doubly hard for paper 1 and paper 2.

I think i understand what is karma now. Just now, i sent out several smses, jioin my friends to go study, only a few replied but the rest din even bothered to reply at all. So i waited while studyin of course, until now also no reply. It doesnt take one to simply type a yes or no reply right? Well, it dawned on me that i used to be like them too, nv replyin ppl sms. Now i get the feelin. But nvm, i am not gonna jio ppl to go study anymore. Its a torture askin. Forget it.

I am feelin a bit hot tempered and stress so pardon me for being so grouchy. I just wanted to vent out all my frustrations. Today is just the start of the battle, i will hang in there and lets see who has the ultimate tenacity and last laugh. I hope i survive :/

Just changed blogskin, i think this looks nice. :D

Thanks nicholas for cheerin me up on fb, thanks dude. Hes a joke man.

Gonna keep to my word and finish 80% of chem nao! Sleepin super early later.

Lastly HAPPY 18TH BDAE TO AH DA! My first friend in S02 when i came to pjc, hope you have an awesome day!

Just curious. Does all guys feel the same when they see the girl they like a lot being disturbed constantly by another guy? Feelings of jealousy that cause him to wan to go spam STFU at the guy and F off pls. LOL. Damn./

study nao! bye!

LAST POST THEN I AM ON HIATUS!

2010-08-18T22:52:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT, I HAVEN BLOGGED FOR FREAKING LONG. LOST THE SENSE OF TOUCH TYPING ALR. AHHAHA.

SCH HAS BECOME MY SECOND HOME, WITH ME SPENDING 13 HOURS IN IT PER DAY. TORTURING

TODAY HAD ASSEMBLY MOTIVATIONAL TALK BY SPEAKER DENNIS YEO. I FEEL AS IF I AM UNDERGOING ADAM KHOO WORKSHOP SECOND TIME, EXCEPT THE DURATION IS MUCH SHORTER. BUT, THE REWARDS FOR THE DAY IS AWESOME! I AM MORE FIRM ABOUT MY GOAL. I WANT TO GET TO LOCAL UNIVERSITY, I WANT TO CHOOSE THE SUBJECT COMBINATION I LIKE, I WANT TO GET INTO THE FACULTY I WANT. LEFT WITH 81 DAYS, I AM SO NOT GIVING UP/. I DIN MUG AS MUCH DURING O LEVELS, PROB CUZ I KNOW I CAN STILL PASS REASONABLY WELL. NOW I AM SCARED.

SCARED BUT I WILL GO FOR IT.

I BELIEVE I CAN.

I BELIEVE EVERY J2 PIONEER IN PJC ALSO CAN.

LAST POST TODAY. GOING FOR HIATUS UNTIL AS OVER.

* DO NOT THINK OF HOW MUCH YOU CANNOT DO.

* JUST THINK OF HOW MUCH YOU CAN DO

TIME IS A COMMODITY FOR EVERYONE NOW, INCLUDING MY JUNIORS WHOSE PROMOS COMING, JIAYOUS PEEPS

SUCCESS COMES WITH 1% INTELLIGENCE AND 99% HARDWORK

I STRONGLY BELIEVE IN THAT

BYE PPL, JIAYOUS FOR EXAMS. : DDD

Ending soon : )

2010-07-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

Alrights time for some quick updates. Been really busy last week, stayed back for night study everyday with judes to study. When i returned home, i feel shag, but accomplished. I also found another awesome study partner which is none other than kerjyn! AHAH! Hope to be able to keep up with this momentum to the end of A levels.

Night study food sucks. TTM, i am really hoping there is beehoon man. Hai, biscuits every night is so turn off.

Oh ya, my lappie is finally back in action, so happy man. Thanks to mum helpin me to ask the service centre how to fix. But the sad thing is all my songs and data are gone. Hai, now i only have all my awesome english songs, with 0 chinese songs. Sian.

Sch is starting later and i am not yet asleep. Doing my ksp tutorial now, argh, it sucks havin to do sth which u have learn a very long time ago, totally. And my math hypothesis plann to finish until qn 16 tonight but i only do till qn 14, i am so slow sia. OMG, den still need prepare bio stuffs sia, for the classroom banded thing, heng i not in lecture, cuz need memroise every week, i think i will die. It may be a blessing in disguise. Good luck to those who have to go for bio lecture.

My focus for now, is to beef up my GP, i wan a B! gRRR!

okok back to work. Bye.

118 days

2010-07-13T20:31:00.002+08:00

Alrights 118 days more to the A levels. After the mid year results, i conclude i am not prepared. Some of the subjects were demoralising.

Common test results:

GP: E
Math: D
Chem: B
Bio: U
CSE: C
MID YEAR results

GP: D
Math: E
Chem: B
Bio: S
CSE: E
So as u can see, my results are quite bad. But i aint givin up. There is still prelims in 10 weeks. I will score from dere. Most disappointing was bio, i did wat i could le, studied, applied and still results so sucky, at times i really feel like jus surrendering, until ytd, my senior junhua suddenly msg me to ask about my mid years, ahha i was stunned cuz i din hear from him damn long le, he is doing damn well now, happy for him. What he told me was damn true, i told him abt my results, den to my surprise, he say it was okay. I am inspired by him, he kept tellin me not to give up, just pace myself well. haha! To be frank, i was damn stressed when i got back my results, thinkin about what he said, it makes lotsa sense. To ppl gettin results like mine, dun give up, u never noe what can happen until the final min whereby u receive yr real A results.

Jiayous everyone!

failure is not fatal, it is just the point for you to let go, and decide to stand up again!

MYE over

2010-07-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

The mid year exams jus ended recently, yet i aint feelin any excitement durin last day of paper, perhaps cuz As are coming in 4 mths time. I am still left with prelims, and den offset for the real one le. Tml will be results day, well, everythin is fixed by now and i know i have tried my best, at least i reallie studied harder than in common test, except for math.

I am quite certain my math results will drop, yea perhaps kena kick from math excellence indeed. HAHA. The thing that makes me happy during june is that i have done bio bible and chem bible, now studyin them is so much easier. I have not regretted ommiting time out to do these 2 things, though it is really tedious and time consuming. There was once whereby i din sleep the entire night jus to speed up my efficiency, i really hope my hard work pays off. I hope to be able to get the most improved student for bio. I really try very hard for bio alr. But i know i can push myself harder, nvm if this time i din get it, as long as i see improvement from common test, it is good enough.

Today the pioneer alumni came to speak to us, well i couldnt rmb all the things they said, but one thing for sure, it is so similar to sec 4. I totally lost my goal and motivation in sec 4 due to study fatigue which was what the alumi mentioned today too. I am so not gonna let that happen in JC anymore. It is my last year, and i am determined to do it well. I was telling eehong that i oso wan to come back and motivate others lol. A dream that would seem quite far from me. But i am determined to try.

The alumni is right, we are no different from any of the elite IP/IB/ top JC students. They can do it so can we.

I hope this drive and motivation will last me thru the last 4 months.

I am happy for my juniors who have done well for their mid yrs! For those who haven dun worry cuz thre is still time for promos, dun giv up~!

I am going to keep this optimist attitude tml and throughout when i receive my papers, no hard feelings, cuz i have done my best (:

May god bless me for GP, hope to get D bah.

Updates soon! Gonna read up on homeostasis!~

ONE MONTH!

2010-06-23T23:48:00.003+08:00

i haven blog for ages, haha too lazy or rather too busy.

Busy with studying, playing, partying, catching up. 10 more min to end of 23rd June, haiz, i am so dead. I haven finish studying for god sake. When ppl ask me if i study finish i say i haven they dun believe my words, den why still ask me in the first place? Well, i am happy i accomplished a bit of stuff, but yea more needs to be done. One more day to H1 paper, i am so not giving up. Hope to secure a B for CSE this time. Prays : ) Its a race against time now. Dun give up ppl, for winners are the one who never give up till the end!

Sense of achievement

2010-05-23T10:53:00.002+08:00

I felt so proud of myself ytd, cuz i completed 25 km passion run 2010. Time is ard 3 hours plus. I swear to god, the accomplishment u get when you run past the finishing line. It is awesome ttm! My legs are very sore and pain after that, but yea, like what i said sense of accomplishment. My dad told me that i surely cant complete. Eehong said that i will give up halfway, now i have proven it to them. ahhahaha.

Mornin playedd bball with TNT and Wu ming. Took it for warm up lo, den afternoon went to meet with hui to go ECP. Along the way we saw many runners, woah. haha. den when we reach ECP, tmd, we mus walk for 5 km to the start point, OMNS la. Den after putting our stuffs, it is time for flag off./ We were all in wave 2.

Along the first few km, it was still quite okay for me, after 7km, i feel the fatigue setting in alr, den i start seeing ppl walk. Thank god there is hydration point along the way, hundred plus as well as water. Shiok. Else i think dehydration man. My legs only couldnt take it after 14 km. Den i walked a few km before running again. The thing that spurred me on is the hundred plus at each hydration point! ahhaha. Everytime drink finish den i feel damn shiok, and more energy. Also thanks to the ppl at the sides for cheering for runners that helps. LOL guess wat got a lot chio bus sia. LOL. Must thank one of the uncle and auntie also, cuz i use them as pace mark.

After the run, there was miscommunication and we waited for laoda to appear but she din appear only after 1 h plus plus. ahhaha. Then me, hui and linsay shared cab and we parted our ways.

In short, this is really an experience for me, i thought i couldnt have thhe mental strength to do it, cuz i am not a very fit person. Somemore negative voices kept tryin to pull me down. I am glad i am able to pull through. Thank god.v When i return home, i felt super cui, went online to chat but tio gl again. LOL jus jokin, i also got gl, it was a damn gl conveersation bet both of us. Lmao/.

Alright, today left nt much time, i shall go study, blog soon :))))))

thoughts

2010-05-20T00:03:00.003+08:00

Well, i simply love today, cuz only 2 lessons not including Pe. Ok, i only improve 1s again. Which is sian.

CT lesson struck me rather. Mrs lee words set me upon thinking, yeah, from the parents meeting session, she can rather see whose children are closer to the parents. haha, i envy some of my friends parents, who rather know that their children can fare better and aint that harsh over the results. haha. Well, my parents are the complete contary. haha, after meet the parents, practically every night i got breathed down the neck of did i study for bio on that day. I was even given a lecture esp in the car after meet parents session.

These are jus thoughts though la, not really emoin or sad. I understand they wan me to do well. So perhaps they are brought up in this manner too. I jus have to accept it. As to mrs lee saying sharing stuffs with parents, hmm, i doubt its possible. After so many years of being like this, i actually find it hard to share normal daily stuffs with them though. I jus felt a bit of a barrier between us. haha, life just have to go on right.

The actual A levels are jus around the corner, with the mid year exams being the next hurdle. I am determined to do well. I know i can do it.

No matter how bad a situation is, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel :)

MON DOWN

2010-05-17T17:21:00.002+08:00

Today was just a normal day, jus feels quite sick of going to sch.

MAth lecture--> Boring, best thing is eehong got guailan.

GP tutorial--> EVen boring, siraj nv crack jokes today

GP lecture---> Sickenning, copy until hands pain

Math tutorial--> Irritating.

Chem tutorial--> SIan ji puah.

Overall: Super OMNS( oh my noob shit! jus learned it ytd) sia.

After sch, got trained by eehong sir. LOL! Lmao. My PT i/c. LOL.

I know i shdnt whine so much, but yeah.. i need some motivation.

Counting down to june hols, but before that is GP exam.

Reallie worried for it.

Anyonee free to studyy with me?~

Confused

2010-05-16T09:35:00.002+08:00

For a moment, i tot i was confused.

Unsure

Uncertainty.

I am not really sure about it too.

Weird.

Perplexed.

Another week!

2010-05-14T20:54:00.002+08:00

I realised nowadays i can only blog on a weekly basis. Cuz too busy alr.

Life's been pretty stressful. This week had chem spa. I felt quite sad cuz i minus 1 or 2 marks, not that i am a perfectionist, jus that, like wat ms aw says, those ppl in rj or nj, will not allow themselfvses to lose such marks. Nvm. Math lessons seem like a bitch. Not that i dun understand, but sian. Some stupid conversation with awesome in the night cheered me up rather. Thanks!

Me: 雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧雪慧

Awwseome: 硕疯！哈哈哈哈哈

是硕峰！

赌神峰！

Awwesome: wads stp?

me: standard temp

Awwesome: == what u meant luH!

me: chey i tot u askin me chem, i typo, i meant stop!

Total lmao.

Today cse lesson was actually quite fun towards the end. Cuz mr lim let us play an online game related to cse, LOL! Den in class the atmosphere was loosened up, was quite relaxed as compared to other lessons.

Today re run my 2.4, i improved by 5 seconds again, but i need 5 more seconds to a D. I know i can do it.

Today had math lecture, sort of like bandin for students, quite fruitful, learnt quite a lot of new things. Interesting. But i guai lan the feedback form. LOL!

Life sucks nowadays, but it is awesome to have yr friends ard you and supporting you.

I feel blessed. (:

OMAS & OMBS! AHHAHAHA!

2010-05-09T15:56:00.002+08:00

ANOTHER WEEK has just passed by quickly, today is sun alr. Sighs, time flies super fast. Ytd went to study at je lib. Saw kuan yuan and joined him at table cuz no seats le. Then saw christine also came, den we studied together. Got tired of studyin den we became damn crappy. haha. They left around 4 plus, i stayed on to study until 8. Not really study la, jus did hw. Den got one incident, i suddenly doze off, den got woke up by the security, damn ps. LOL, heng its not the guai lan security, its an auntie. haha. So i went home after doing work lo, din feel so accomplished though. Went online den started crappin with my awessome junior vivian! Her new name is AWESOMEEE~! ahhhaha! damn awesomme conversation.

2 new words: OH MY AWESOME SHIT! (OMAS)

: OH MY BULLSHIT!(OMBS)

Damn funny, kept laughin att the stupid things we said. LOL. Crap man, wanted to do hw after surfin net, but ended up CT too much, den got too tired. I have a new name sia: Indian Vampire. LOLOLOL! What an awesome night! LOL.

Today i met up with fav junior to teach chem, went back je lib for 2.5 hours, quite tiring, but glad she finally understood. I also find myself understandin the chapt even better as i teach. Shiok. Den shenshen also came after that, den we makan, before partin ways. Saw ernest and we took same mrt. haha.

Now i am bloggin, gonna go out for dinner later, better go do my hw now.

Shit tml got math quiz on complex, sucks! I hate complex.

gosh, i simply love USING omas! AHAHA!

OMAS!

AWESOME!

2010-05-03T00:17:00.003+08:00

HAD AN AWESOME DAY BOTH YTD WITH TNT. BBALLED, SWIM, TABLE TENNIS, GYM AND POOL! AHAH SPEND QUITE A LOT! BUT GREAT CATCHING UP WITH YOU GUYS.!

AND TODAY WITH 29555 PEEPS!

WAS SUPPOSED TO BE STUDY FIRST DEN MOVIES, BUT YEAHH, A LOT OF CTS ALONG THE WAY.

WATCHED IP MAN II. DAMN NICE. EVERYONE SHD WATCH IT. AHAH.

DEN LAODA GOT TO GO, SO ME , HO AND SHIHAN WENT STAR BUCKS. ALONG THE WAY WE SAW THE GUARDS UNIT CHANGING CEREMONY, DAMN COOL MANN.

DEN LATER WAITED FOR LIFANG AND JIN LONG TO COME JOIN US IN CELEBRATIN SHIHAN'S BDAE. WE WENT TO ASHTON TO EAT. WAH, GREAT FOOD. WE EACH ORDERED OUR OWN SET DEN WE SHARED AMONG OURSELVES. AHAH. DEN THERE IS GHOST SHARING SESSION! AHAH! SHIHAN MOST FEARED STUFF. WE WERE TALKIN ABT NS, DEN LINK HERE LINK THERE! AHAHHA.

DEN WE PARTED. TOOK BUS WITH LIFANG. WE WERE AT THE BUS STOP, DEN THERE IS THIS GUY DAMN POOR THING, CAUSE HE LOSE HIS WAY, DEN HE DUNO HOW TO GO HOME, DEN HE SUDDENLY COME ASK ME AND LIFANG CAN TAKE WAT BUS, DEN WE OSO DUNOO. DEN WE WANTED TO HELP HIM CHECK, HE KEEP SHUNNIN US. THERE WERE OTHER PPL TOO WHO WANTED TO HELP BUT HE WAS KINDA AFRAID OF THEM. DEN LIFANG AND I WAITED CUZ WE WANTED TO SEE IF HE BOARD THE BUS HE WANTED. IN THE END, HE STILL DIN BOARD THE BUS AND WE MISSED OUR BUS OSO, BUT ITS OKAY LA, HENG MY PARENTS NOT AT HOME. DEN WE TOOK 190, SAW HER HOME, DEN I RETURNED HOME TOO. AND NOW I AM BLOGGIN.

SIAN MAX, SCH IS STARTING ON TUES, I HAVEN TOUCH MY HW. GG.

LOOKING FORWARD TO CCA BBQ TML !

BBBUYE!

PTM

2010-04-24T16:41:00.002+08:00

I think nowadays not much time to blog but i try my best to blog whenever i can. Today had the meet the parents session cum higher education day. Well, my parents time slot was 330, so mornin i went to sch first to listen to the talks by the 3 universities people. Met clement along the way to sch so we went to the talk. Saw eric with his mum and brother, lols his bro damn cute. LOL. Den laoda also come join us listen after her ptm. I was crappin by sayin if i set up CT cca , my club surely a lot ppl join, can improve oral skills! LOL. A bit sian lo, so after the talk, me and laoda and eric went to eat and CT. LOL. Congrats to eric for his cuesports for enterin top 8! haha.

After eating we parted, den i took bus with eric back to cck while laoda go the other way. I went back home first, cause my timing is 330. Dun feel like doin hw, so i msned and fb for a while. Chatted with lingying, den both of us agrreeed hw is SIAN MAX. LOL! Hw sucks ttm.

Den waited and waited before it is my turn to see mrs lee, sian la, expected her to say all those same things. Well, parents were kinda reluctant to go, after seein her, i got a pep talk again in the car. Well, i learnt to take things in my stride now, watever unreasonable things they say i wun take into account. My ears will be like the cell membrane of a cell, confering selective permeability to wat i want to listen! Keep quiet now, and when i achieved wat i wan, they will den keep quiet.

The sky has jus brighten up, just like my feelings now (:

Time for homework :)

Quick updates

2010-04-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

Alrights jus a quick update! This week been kinda busy and hectic, cuz this weekend got a lot of hw to be done. On a lighter note, i have gotten my pw grade. B (: Well, i was expecting a little more than that, but its okay, an A or B is good for me. HAHA. Thanks Mr ching and ms yeoh last year for helping my group lots. Thanks.

I just completed the planning question. HAAH now i am going to do my favourite chem! LOL. Havin bio test on thurs and math test on fri, really need to start preparing, but i need to clear the hw pile firsst. Damn cse, give 2 essays, i haven do yet, nvm mus finish chem first.

I am now totally in love with this song by eliza bennet my declaration from the movie ink heart. OMG, i tell u, i think shes damn awesome. Same age as us can u believe it, lol./ HAAH. Talents everywhere. DAMN i wan download this song!

Tml will be good cuz mr siraj is absent, so we jus be doing the work he give, hopefully it aint much. Prays.

My right eye keeps twiching these few days, pray hard nth bad is gonna happen.

Cant wait to end sch soonn. Ok, gtg pia, cya.

Pissed

2010-04-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

I am feeling very pissed now. It may not be a very big problem to ppl oout dere, but to me i am disturbed by it. I dun understand why my father cant be more understanding towards me. Guess what, jus now i jus hand the meet the parents form to him so that he can check the time slot, the first thing that came from his mouth is, SEE FOR WAT? DUN WASTE TIME LA. This is not the worst thing yet. Den he grumbled and decided the time slot, den in a few moments: " Jasper u need to buck up u noe, esp for yr weakest bio, why u always cant perform one nice time for me to see? I nv see u work hard at all one, everytime only see u laze around, den later study until very late, always like to last min. Why cant you show me one good one?"

Ok, so stand in my position and feel what i am feeling now/. yah, many ppl wld say that is concern. Wow, i wish i can brainwash myself now, and say yeah, it is true leh, his words are really good. But i am feeling damn fucked up now. It has been the same since pri sch, since sec sch, and now in jc. No words of encouragement at all. Is it so hard to say sth to encourage me? Insstead of always trying out the hard way of makin me prove you wrong?

I am sick and tired of listening to the same thing. I dare say i am not lazy at all. You have no rights to say that i am lazy. The next statement he said pissed me totally. " WHAT ELSE U WAN ME TO DO? U WAN TUITION I GIV U TUITION.You know every mth so expensive./ CAN U SHOW ME A GOOD ONE?"

I wanted tuition because i wanted to cope better and it did helped me. So i am not wasting money at all. And if you can stop buying toto and 4d or go abroad, play goft almost every week, you dare say my tuition money is expensive and u cant afford?

Whenever i tell them why others ppl parents dun exert so much pressure on their children, they argue and say that is becuz others parents dun care abt their children at all.

Are your parents the same as mine?

i FEEL TIRED SOMETIME. I TOT HAVIN TO COPE WITH A LEVELS IS TOUGH ENOUGH, AND THAT FAMILY CAN GIVE ME SOME EMOTIONAL SUPPORT, BUT IN REALITY ITS JUS NTH. DUN TELL ME IS BECUZ THEY CARE, THEY CARE TOO MUCH.

Ps: I jus need to vent it out, i feel muc better.

1st week!

2010-04-09T20:01:00.002+08:00

Phew, friday has finnally just arrived. I feel damn tired. Just came back home not too long ago. Today's schedule is very jialat cuz we have all subjects and pe. Lucky pe din do much today. Went to sanctuary for my first few times this year to enjoy some quality time with class guys. Ah ho was dere too, so we played monopoly together! AHAH! yay i won! haha, damn funny, eehong and jude ally against me den i stil win! ahha. Mus thank ah ho for trading with me my property so i can build house! ahha. While we were playing, mr siraj suddenly come ! LOL! he was shocked to see us! LOL! I bet mon he will have a lot of things to say! ahah.

I went for bio remedial ytd, and guess what, ms tan told me belle and miaoling we have occupied extra 3 seats of ppl who really need remedial. LOL. But i think remedial wld definitely help me a lot, ms tan is a very patient teacher! Yes yes, i am sure my results will improve. Me and beelle both aiming for the most improved award. AHAHA. Went to sanctuary to find demas to study. Saw jude, den pia hw together. Den the SC ppl came, kind of noisy, couldnt concentrate. We left ard 545.

我不会轻易放弃！

jiayous ah per!

Middle kingdom race!

2010-04-07T19:32:00.003+08:00

Feelin a sense of satisfaction now! Becuz china desk middle kingdom race is over, for the past 2 weeks, i have been fretting over it, i am so so so relieved when it is finally over.

It is an experience for both me and my juniors, cuz i am in charge of planning it. The process of goin thru their proposals is like pw man, damn strenuous. And i stayed back with them to finalise their work, wah, its damn tiring. Of cuz, this cannot be compared to orientation, cuz i felt more tired den. But what doesnt kills you makes you stronger!* It has become my life quote! AHAH! Thanks to juniors for helping out as well as the JC 2s, and daesiree.

Today i was almost shocked, when i saw the results applications to university. It is so so so freaking demanding. I decided to work hard now to atone for my slackiness during common test.

Oh yar, updates for Common test results:

H2 Math D

H2 Bio U

H2 Chem B

H1 CSE C

H1 GP E

Rank pts: 43.

Yup these are my results, i am aiming for the most improved bio results during mid year. I am happy my cse improved.

I literally died from PE today. Freakin hot from the run. Sighs.

I can now relax from cca a bit, and focus on my studies (:

Bio remedial starts tml! After that will be study session with demas! Thanks dude!

GTG: See you!

Thought it over (:

2010-04-02T19:33:00.002+08:00

Alrights was feelin a bit sian half ytd, but yup, everythin is fine today alr. HAHA, ytd me and ah hui vs some sec sch kids at concord court dere. Won them 11- 3. HAHA. That makes my mood man! ahha..

Jus received msg on fb ytd from ms tan that i will be involved in the bio remedial. Shes quite disappointed in my performance this time. Yeah, i told her i din prepare well, she said it isnt an excuse. Ok, i will prove her wrong cuz i told her i will break away from remedial asap. Our class bio results aint good too, about half the class is in bio remedial. Thanks for the encouragement from eehong, yewcheng and laoda on msn ytd. Thanks. Congrats to laoda for winnin her karate match again ytd! Way to go!

Today was an awesome time spent with my 29555 peeps lol. They are Ah leong, xiaohan, Laoda and Ah ho. LOL. Ah ho is wengho, LOLS. We studied in mac at orchard dere, lols, den after a while, we got chased to outside, cuz of peak hour, LOL! We went to mc cafe dere, had lots of CT session along the way. LOL! They are funny and awesome la, thanks ah ho for teaching me p and c, i got the hang of it le. AHAH. Den we cam whored, i was sayin, " omg, i only have 3 mega pixel leh!" den ah ho said" i have 5 mega pixel!" Den laoda was " i have 8 megapixel! AHAHA! U and ho add up to be mine! LOL" lmao.

lol, damn funny with the movie pics, esp leong and ah ho one. LOL. Den we watched clash of the titans, awesome movie effects, we shd have watched 3D, but the storyline okok only, i cant believe hades so fast get defeated. HAHA! For those who haven catch the movie, go catch it! But i still prefer how to train your dragon! AHAHA! Xiaohan is damn innocent, she actually believed me when i said ROLF stands for reach out for love! LOL! lmao.

I cant wait to have another session with these crazy ppl soon, next time will be we go someone house watch! LOL! Ownage of movie marathon. AHAH. 29555 ftw!

Mr hiap hardcore is still making my thigh painful. LOL.

It is time to work hard.

Stacy bdae is coming in 4 hours time(: Gonna be old old le AHAHAH!

First day

2010-03-29T18:24:00.002+08:00

Wow, its amazing to know that i have not received any of my papers back. I feel freaked by my chem mcq i got 16/30. Amazin huh, for someone who had tuition outside. Sucker, i hope paper 2 will be better.

Math was sian, she tml returnin paper, but jus now eehong say she diao me. I guess nth good will come out of it.

As i was walking past mr wong class jus now, a sense of guilt overwhelme me.

I screwed GP, cuz mr siraj jus go through the essay outline, i know my paper 1 is gone.

Jus came back from sch, had cca meetin with yunhui and dae, after which studied with laoda and friend cuz they sittin for their chem makeup which is now till 7. Went home with ahhui and jeremy.

Gonna night run with ah hui again later. 2 rounds of brickland road today! ahha.

I learn wat is operation P from demas. AAHHA.

I dread tml, like seriously.

All the best.

tiring but happy day(:

2010-03-27T20:19:00.003+08:00

Today is crazy, i woke up suddenly at 745 today when i slpt at 3 am the day before, cuz i was playing psp and couldnt get to slp. LOL. Had a severe operation CT session with my boss and ahhui.LOL. CT= cock talking. lol. They jio me to join the passion run thing. 25 km omfg. But the incentives are awesome. Just participate in the run and u will get a goodie back worth of items for $150. LOL. Guess waht, i agreeed. lol. Can train stamina, why not? Napha comin oso. It is goin to be a severe challenge of the mental mind. Srsly need to train.

Continuing my story, so mornin i woke up and couldnt get to slp le cuz the day befeore i slpt 14 hours. So i went to ren house downstairs play bball alone. Met some sec 1 kids and made friends with them. They very funny lah! LOL.

Den i returned home, washed up, oh shit feelin quite cui le. Den i searched the net den realise the passion run need indemity form. LOL. Cuz under the age of 21 need. For a moment, ahhui panicked. LOL. But nvm, met ahhui at cck den we go novena meet laoda. At novena, saw laoda friend linsay who also goin to run and jinlong, but he nt runnin. We registered, me and ahhui goin the duo run. He run 25 km den i run 25 km, den both times add together, lol. Mum gave me passion membership card so got discount. $44. Got a fila bag as a gift, omfg its the same as mine, so i took the red colour. Den the person say no need indemity thing. heng ar. Den we all followed laoda shoppin. Den jinlong wanted to fix his iphone so we took bus to somewhere. I parted with them cuz i meeting ah leong to go AC.

On my way back, i realised i took the super long train. damn. But thanks ah leong for waiting for me. Got wengho and kunyun oso. haha. Cuz they went there first. I wanted to support zhenghan, but cant find him. Guess what, i go AC just to buy revive to drink. LMAO joke. Thanks ahleong for givin me $2 ticket. Cuz i gave my ticket to huijie. Super sian. Epic joke of the day, leong called me and say he saw someone like me, LOL. We met jack at AC den he say he see someone like me at cck again. OMG, am i so prominient.? LOL. Went AC for super short while den left with leong they all cuz he need go ahma dinner. Took train back to cck. We made bastard jokes along the way, xibei guailan. LOL. LMAO. PS zhenghan cant eat dinner with ya. Great, i made a new friend kunyun, he cant recognise me when i say he taught me chem! They tot it was his twin bro kun da, LOL.

Now i am back home typing this post. Gonna play psp first!

Work comes later!

As i tot, doomsday is near! GGfied.

Common tests over!

2010-03-26T17:21:00.002+08:00

Alrights, shall do a quick update.

Wed went sch super early to study math with laoda, saw eric and we studied together. Our brain literally reached brain saturation. Den epic joke of day, juniors jeremy and ahhui came along den they had a conversation with laoda. Cuz laoda senior called CJ den they havin some cca bbq i think, den jeremy suddenly said: huh!? why got cjc one, LOL"( somethin lidat) EPIC joke, i was focusin halfway when i broke into laughter. Den we studied and studied until the flood of students came down. LOL. Math was horrible. Wouldnt like to elaborate further.

Common test ended ytd, i felt a sigh of relief as well as a sigh of disappointment.

Bio was the worst subject out of my rests. I literally died ytd.

Nvm, its over, just take it as a learnin experience lo.

Bballed with eehong and judes after ct.

Den went with class guys to watch how to train yr dragon 3D. Its awesome. HAHA i love toothless! Its so cute!

Den i went home, slacked the entire night den knocked out at 10. Woke up at 1130 today, with a headache, cuz i slpt too long. FB the entire afternoon and sourcing for songs. HAHA. Life is slack now. Funny thin happen jus now. Ms aw called me to ask me spread msg to class, den i duno its her, i say HUH? Den she say:" its ms aw la!" LOL. Damn funny.

Alright, i am gonna change my strategy for biology, ahha. Like what adam khoo says, cant give up.

Rest and play next week onwards pia! WHOS WITH ME?!?!?!?

FUCKED UP

2010-03-23T13:06:00.002+08:00

FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCK FUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK HIGHLY DISGUSTED AT MY PERFORMANCE TODAY.

I WANT TO BE LIKE PPL WALKIN OUT SAYIN OMFG IT IS SO EASY.

DAMN. FUCKIN BLOGGER JUS GOT ON MY NERVES. I TYPE OUT MY ENTRY AND EVERYTHIN GOT DELETED.

10s16 outing!

2010-03-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

Today had s16 outing! ahaha! But turnout wasnt tht good. Only had weixian, janessa, darren, visha, minhui and zhixian. Nevertheless, i had loads of fun. Thanks. The chattin sessions were awesome oso. June shall have another one, this time mus get more ppl, today lotsa ppl cant make it. My ass now hurts becuz of the cyling. Just came home not too long ago, feelin shag alr. But i not giving up. If i give up, den i am a gonner. ahha. Come on! I can do it! J is for jiayou i love jiayou! if i am tired, jus shout jiayou! LOL.

Alrights, time for work! Tml will be study session with laoda!

GTG bye.

CAlm CALM CALM

2010-03-17T23:39:00.002+08:00

I am in the midst of dying. I still have so many chapters to study. ARGH.

Tml still got sci centre thing. DAMN DAMN DAMN. I freakin hate science.

Friday got outing with s16. I think i cant play for whole day and overnight le. Sian max.

First paper is CSE, sucks.

Argh, shall go do work now.

Stacy says (11:49 PM):

You reap what you sow, just think of your results.. But hor, its called the march HOLIDAYS for a reason. Slack abit wont die la

Stacy says (11:51 PM):

Dont worry man just study hmk can throw one side whatttt, test more impt!

I only prefer the first part xD. But thanks for the encouragement.

Meanwhile laoda if u seein this, hope u feelin much better le! Cheer up kayyys! Dun emo. Emo=bad=suck. Must regain back yr smile :D Anythin i support u! =DD

GTG. Bye.

March hols.

2010-03-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

Alrights today is the first day of the march hols. Went to sch early in mornin hoping to consult mr lim, den realised someone told me the wrong info, den he got meeting and i couldnt consult him. On a lighter note, i finished reading the entire core notes. After which went to seoul gardens with eehong, huijie, gabs and judes to eat so as to celebrate our bdaes. ahha. It was awesome. Damn full, i even told my maid to cancel making my dinner as lunch is more than sufficient. LOL. Had great conversations too. AHHA.

Jus woke up not too long ago. Ps, was damn tired, gonna get work done le.

Guess wat, i failed my second bio test again. Got 18.5/45. I hate myself man. Keep disappointing Mr wong. I am going to try my best for common test. I dun wan to kena remedial!

I wun give up i swear. All is worth it when i envisaged the situation on stage next year.

Sian, this hols is real short, not much time to rest. Gonna mugged real hard now!

Totally looking forward to 10s16 outing on friday (: !! Cant wait to see them!! Whoots!

First day of week

2010-03-08T18:41:00.002+08:00

Today is tiring cuz i went to run with class guys after sch at canal dere, not bad, most of us improved our timing. Den on our way back we shared a lot of sec sch stuff on ghosts. EWW, eerie.

Well, 4 more days to start of common test, i mus have the tenacity to persevere. Mr siraj gave us life talk today and decision making oso. I am now listening to i believe i can fly. I can do it!

Math test is bad, cuz mdm song says 14/26 ppl failed. Awesome right. Hope i can pass. Tml if mr wong returns bio test, i think i be in deep trouble. Haix.

Alrights, shant think so much. Now i have the mood to go mug le.

Because stacy lim promised to treat me if my name goes on the screen next year.

( if i lose the bet, i have to treat her! no way!)

Be prepared to treat!

Goal so far yet so near. SEEYA! study time!

HW pile

2010-03-07T20:32:00.002+08:00

Quick updates. Went to the lib alone to chiong my hw ytd and today. I realised it can be so packed at like 12 plus only/ WTf. But fortunately for me, god has made arrangements and i managed to find a seat easily. Accomplished quite a bit i must say, and these two days have just gone by. Previously, all my sats were burned due to OGL meetings and stuff and i haven had a day whereby i can really sit down properly with my notes. Glad to have that chance ytd and today. The feelin is superb.

Met limin at lib ytd oso. Today was damn coincedental/ i went to the lib the quiet zone area, den theere were no seats. So i went to ask a girl sitin at the table dere cuz got empty seats. Den while i was doin, someone familiar came and i realised it was liang. LOL. Turns out she knew that girl den i tot they meetin up but den she tell me no, it was jus pure coincedental. Den another person came and it is their mutual friend. LOL. So we chiong our work dere. I chionginng my tys. Finally finished hydroxyl. Still got long way to go, but i not giving up (: Though i have not been handing in my tys, i reallie sit down and do them carefully. So i hope ms aw will not call me aside just to ask me why i haven been doing my hw. Prays* To me i feel that most impt thing is you mus understand that chapter/ No point keep doing tys den numbed yrself to death with it. Den when exams come u cant handle the application questions oso.

I am feeling damn motivated these days. I believe i will clear the tys. It is just months more to the real thing. I will pace myself well (:

Just had 2 hrs of chem tuition, now going back to my hw! Bye!

A level results

2010-03-05T19:52:00.003+08:00

Today as i sat at the back of the hall behind the ex pioneers, lots of thoughts pondered through me. I was jus reminded that a year ago, i was actually the one receving my O level result. I can still rmb that fateful day. I had to go spray back black colour on my hair and cut it short before i was allowed to take my result. The school was so inflexible la, to be exact its with the crap management.

Den as the names of the top students were flashed across the screen, i was highly disappointed not to see my name in any of them. I feel quite envious of my friends, my peers going up one by one and receiving their results with pride and honour. As for me, i gt my result slip from koh, den he jus smiled at me and said congrats. Den i took a look at my results and it was only 3As and all Bs and L1R5 of 14. Guess wat, i felt kind of sad of cause, as all my friends scored pretty well. My class average msg was 8.6. So u can imagine how i feel. I am like the last in my class bah. But i told myself i would move on and not be daunted by it. I chose PJC on the day i receive my results and both my parents said i was crazy. Even my friends say so. But who cares anyways, i am glad i did not make the wrong choice after all. Being a year inside, i have adapted to the environment very fast and made a lot of friends from many classes. Today, as i look at all my seniors getting 4As or 3As, i feel very envious of them. AHHA! Top scorer for my sch has a L1R5 same as me, i am now super motivated sia!

I will continue to work hard, thanks to all the encouragements from my seniors. Thanks.(: Common test is next week! I am going to start mugging.

Dreams are virtual but we have the potential to create it with our own hands. We are people who are full of possibilities. Each and everyone os us.

I will start working towards my goals.

Now. I want my name to appear on the screen next year. Not as top student lah, but jus appearing there i will feel very proud le.

MOTIVATION :O:)

Panic!

2010-02-28T21:40:00.002+08:00

I duno wats the matter with me today, feeling quite flustered and stressed now. Cause i freakin not yet complete my hw. And there is a chem test tml and i haven study. Bio test on tues and i haven finish studying. I made quite a difficult decision today, whether goin to mr lim house or not to go. I chose the latter. I din regret it for i knw if i were to party today again i am totally finished on mon. Sry if i pissed anyone else, din meant to. I was in a dilemma too. Studies mus still be the priority i guess, i am not one who can cope if i play too much.

Meanwhile, there are sitll damn lots of things that i needa settle for cca, tues will be the bonnding session and sian, there will be only 3 excos managing the crowd. Prays hard everything goes well.

On a lighter note, i realise i get more and more energetic now towards the night. Good thing, no need caffaine to keep awake. I am jus admitted into a new gang(Y) ( inside joke) Its called 29555* with lao da chloe. I am called Ah per. AHh chewww was addmited in ytd oso. LOL! lmao. Cant believe i laughed like shit duirng the entire conversation. At least that keeps me awake.

Alrights, shant talk more, happy birthday to ellise! And 3 more hours to yewcheng's bdae. And thanks geelyn for sending me the bio video! She totally saved me, i call like duno how many ppl all say nv download den mr wong also dun wan to extend the video deadline. Sian half, but all thanks to her! =DDD

BUSY and hectic

2010-02-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

Well well well haven been updating my blog for quite some while./ Some quick updates as to wat i can rmb. Last friday had road run, but i was down for duty as a student official. AHAH. It is quite fun seeing all the teachers running together and from dere can see which teachers are the super zai ones. AHAH. Of cause, there are also teachers who are walking. HAHA. After road run, went with my dear class S02 to yi siew house for dinner. Den we played indian poker and everyone's like damn high. LOL. Loser drinks water. hahaha. Den we k boxed! AHHA! Super fun kays, i love my class man (:

Sat went to judes house for visiting, den went to qianmei house to visit. Gambled. AHAH! Fun. Anw chinese new year one year only got once mah, so shdnt be too bad la! ahha. Sun had tuition from 1 to 3 first before going to ts house! His family is the most generous one la, and their food is yummy. AHAH. Gambled again and i won a bit. AHAHA.

So as you can see, i have been partying almost everyday and so dun feel like touching my hw. AHAH. No lah, got study a bit nia. AHAH.

Got back math and chem test, wasnt quite satisffied for chem cuz i din get an A but nvm. Will work harder. Finally this week is over. Cuz i am anticipating the weekends. It will be busy again, cuz tml some s02 coming my house to bai nian and sun we going mr lim house. Sian half, this week a lot of hw sia, and next week still got bio and math department test. Feel like dying. I cant fail math sia, i hate vectors, mdm song say once fail den enter remedial alr, feel so stressed all of a sudden. Damn. On a lighter note, i finally find vectors to be easier and easier. AHAH. Hopefully i do well.

Have been muggin with eehong after sch, we alr made a promise once my ogl ends and his road run ends, den we will mug like siao, i like it sia, makes me feel fruitful. So if anyone wants to mug with us feel free. I think i am not going to do much hw but jus study bio, bio rawkks. AHAHAAH. Also want to thank classs guys for helping me with my pull ups. I wun let you guys down. Today had a chat with mr hiap abt NS, i gt the motivation, i dun wanna go in early man. try my best.

Common test is coming, targets are not to fail any subject. Will continue to work hard, jiayous everyone!

Life is stressed but i believe we all can do it.

third day!

2010-02-15T15:47:00.002+08:00

Hi all! hope everyone had a wonderful and fabulous cny. I din really enjoy mine, cuz i totally sian diao, only when i see the angbaos i am WOAH! lol jk. Damn shiok. Now i am stuck at home, cuz i dun wanna go out, tell my parents i want mug, joining them later at uncle's house. Reading bio now, trying to upload pics on facebook also.

I dun have much cny resolutions this year, my only wish is that i will ace my A levels, be fitter and family safe and sound. Hope to meet someone i fancy soon! wooah!

Ms tan is really one teacher whom i respect. Her patience and her willingness to teach is awesome. She sent me a msg thru fb telling me if i need help or anything can always ask her or mr wong, i told her i will work harder!! Damn nice la, thanks ms tann! i will work hard! These 2 weeks of orientation may have caused me to lag behind, but i will be at the front of the race in no time.

Chem test on wed, i haven study yet, hopefully last min studying can smoke me through. ahah. Alrights, study now!

END OF ORIENTATION

2010-02-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

THURSDAY MARKED THE END OF ORIENTATION. JUST GONNA TYPE OUT MY FEELINGS DURING IT.

WELL, EVERYTHING IS PRETTY AWESOME DURING THE CAMP. ME, LIKHOON AND WAILEONG ARE IN CHARGE OF S16. GREAT WORKING WITH BOTH OF THEM, CUZ THEY REALLY HELPED ME A LOT. ITS REALLY DAMN TIRING BEING THE ADMIN I/C CUZ THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS TO BE DONE, GLAD THAT I HAD THE BOTH OF THEM TO HELP ME OUT.

AS FOR S16, THEY TOTALLY RAWK MY DAY. I CAN STILL RMB THE FIRST DAY WHEN THEY ARE TOGETHER, EVERYONE IS LIKE SUPER QUIET, AND SIAN JI PUAH WHEN THEY WERE PLAYING THE ICEBREAKERS GAMES. I SERIOUSLY HAD THIS THOUGHT: WHY SO SUAY ONE. REALLY FELT LIKE GIVING UP AT THE POINT IN TIME AND WISHED THAT THE ENTIRE ORIENTATION WOULD END. HOWEVER, THINGS STARTED TO CHANGE. THROUGHOUT THE CAMP, S16 FINALLY STARTED BONDIN, OF CUZ IT STARTED WITH A FEW PPL AND THEN THE WHOLE CLASS GOT SUPER HIGH. ON THE LAST DAY, THEY DUN EVEN REQUIRE THE OGLS TO LEAD THEM ANYMORE! I REALLY APPLAUD THEM FOR PARTICIPATING AND SUPPORTING US OGLS. THANKS SO MUCH. SEEING THEM BOND IS MY ACCOMPLISHMENT, NO MATTER HOW TIRED I AM, I FEEL THAT THIS IS MY REWARD FOR THE ENTIRE ORIENTATION.

EVERYONE CAME FROM DIFF SCHS, PROB 1 OR 2 OF THEM CAME FROM THE SAME SCHOOL, BUT THE AMAZING THING IS WHEN THEY ARE TOGETHER DOING CHEERS OR GAMES, THEY ARE AS ONE, AS THOUGH THEY HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR A LONG TIME. ORIENTATION IS ONLY ONCE IN THEIR JC LIFE, AND ITS THE TIME TO GET HIGH AND FUN.

THANKS S16 FOR THE MEMORIES, I AM PROUD BEING YOUR OGL, I WILL MISS S16! PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOADED INTO FB SOON! SHALL END THIS WITH AN S16 CHEER THAT WE CAME UP WITH:

S16 S16, S16 WHOOTS WHOOTS X2

WE HAVE THE BRAVERY,

WE HAVE THE NOVELTY,

WE HAVE THE UNITY,

THESE ARE BONDS IN ME,

WE WILL BEAT YOU UP,

WE WILL BEAT YOU DOWN,

WE WILL PROVE OURSELVES,

TO BE NUMBER 1!

S16, S16, S16 WHOOTS WHOOTS X2

NEXT FOR SPARTANS! I THINK I WILL BE MISSING YOU GUYS, I AM ALREADY HAVING THE EWW FEELIN ALR. WE HAVE REALLY BONDED QUITE A LOT, TOTALLY DIFF WHEN WE ARE DURING THE OGL CAMP. RMMB DURING THE CAMP WE WERE LIKE HERE OR DERE AND WE JUMP ALL THE WAY TO 2ND PLACE IN ORIENTATION. WE ARE THE MOST IMPROVED CLAN, ESP FOR OUR PERFORMANCE, THERE WERE SO MANY TIMES WE SCREWED UP, SO MANY FAILURES, AND I AM SURE A LOT OF US GOT THE SIAN JI PUAH FEELING, BUT DURIN THE CAMP, WE TURNED ALL THESE INTO OUR STRENTHS AND WORKED ON THEM. OUR CHEERS JUST KEEP GETTING MORE, AND ITS REALLY AWESOME. I AM SUPER UBER PROUD TO BE A SPARTAN! AHHH WU! AHH WUUU! WE MANAGED TO SPREAD THIS THROUGHOUT THE REST OF THE CLANS, LOL! GREAT JOB GUYS! SPARTA = <3

THANKS ZHANLUN AND ZIJIE FOR HELPING US A LOT, THEY BOTH HAD THEIR STRENGTHS, THANKS ZHANLUN FOR THE REMINDERS EVERY MORNIN, OR WE BE LATE FOR MORNING BRIEFINGS, THANKS ZIJIE FOR BEING SIAO AND HYPING US UP. LASTLY, THANKS ALL THE STUDENT COUNCIL ATTACHEES TO OUR GROUP FOR THEIR ASSISTANCE AND ALSO TO DEMAS, I THINK HES THE MOST TIRED AMONG ALL OF US. AND YET HE MANAGED TO PULL THROUGH, IF ITS ME I DOUBT I HAD SUCH PERSERVERANCE.

EVERYONE'S BEEN SUPER GREAT AND I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS A LOT! I AM ALR HAVING THE JITTERS ABOUT ORIENTATION ENDING, BECAUSE ITS TIME FOR ME TO STUDY AND MUG. I CANT ENJOY MY CHINESE NEW YEAR, SIAN. LOTSA TO CATCH UP, BUT I AM SURE I CAN, THE TEACHER WORDS REALLY INSPIRED AND MOTIVATED ME. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, A LEADER WILL NEVER GIVE UP. I MAY FEEL TIRED, BUT I WILL HANG IN DERE, MY AIM IS NOT FORGOTEEN, I WANT STRAIGHT AS. I BELIEVE IN MY ABILITY, I KNOW I CAN DO IT, AND NOTHING CAN STOP ME.

NOTHING.

WISH EVERYONE ALL THE BEST FOR THEIR AS AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR CUM VALENTINE'S DAY!

Day 1

2010-02-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

Today was a tiring day, with the start of going to sch early in the morning for morning briefing. Den i met my new og class which is s16, but din got to interact with them cuz i was settling admin stuff. Well, on the whole, i hope they can hype up more, jiayous ppl, i am gonna try my best. Today also eased my fears cuz clan dance is finally over! After weeks of practising, i am very happy that all turns out smmoooth. Cuz we alwyas screw our dance up. Durin break i was like askin stacy how was it and she said we did quite well eh. So i guess our hard work paid off. Clan identity was a hairband, i swear it was my first time wearing a hairband, lol. Lotsa ppl say i act cute sia. WTF.

I hope tml will be an even better day, cuz i noe the jc1s felt kinda restless during songs and cheers, hope tml with the station games and dances, they will be more hyped up. Orientation is ending, which means academics is piling up, i need help! Who wans go study with me? i anything. My chinese new year will be spent on catching up, i wanna do well for my chem test!

Tml is a long day, i hope everything goes smooth. I was damn touched by the card sent to me by mg 6. I duno if its one person or the whole mg but den thanks so much. I will jiayous one! One of my juniors in mg6 askin me whether wan outing or not after cny, ahha, if have i will go! AHAH. But sian half, i got bio make up lesson. Maybe after that lo. I hope my OG can oso be as bonded as that of my mg.

I am damn pissed and fked up by my sister jus now. Argh shant elaborate.

GTG bye.

Life rocks the opposite!

2010-02-07T12:48:00.002+08:00

SUCKS. Alrights, gonna do a quick summary on last week. Thurs was the last day got to spend together with my mg, well, it was damn saddenin kay. AHAH but we get to spend our last few moments together doing CIP, camwhoring, talking cock annd stuff. The funny thing is when we dismissed them, all of them were still crowding around the piano dere, LOL. Well, we bought chocolates for them, and made cards for them. Was damn rush, so some of the cards i din write a lot.

Friday JC1s had headstart programme, but OGLs and SCs had lessons which suck ttm./ Had GP presentation today which turned out quite well heng. Fortunately mdm song din come that day, which was a relief to me, else i wld have been tortured to death cuz i din do my new tutorial. Den bio practical sucks, cause i screwed my experiment as usual and couldnt complete my ws on time. My mind wasnt really in the class la, damn sian. Chem, i din study la, had carboxylic quiz, first paper was quite easy, only couldnt solve the deductive qn, arh fk man. CSE was best, cuz mr lim came in 15 minutes late and ended 10 minutes earlier. So the entire 1.5 hr cse lesson was actuallly only 1h 5 min. I wasnt really listenin to him though, cuz i was doin the new essay he gave us for hw. It is like wad the fuck man, we kept doin old essays over and over again, can we jus do something related to theme 3? Damn it. PE was even boring, have to come up with some project. After sch was finally aweesome, went out to my usual place which is the sanctuary with gabs and judes. After that went to cafe to grab some bite, den it is time to meet spartans! AHAHA! We practised our dance until 930 sia, it was totally great. Den went to eat with demas, bryan, lisa, zhanlun, ahmad, ruishen, mindy, shihan, weijie. After that reach home got scolded by parents.

Sat had to go for sch for briefings, brought hw to do there, glad i finished some of them. Played captain's ball with spartans, it was AWESOME. Had great chats with spartans, den practised dance again before going home.

Now i am about to do my hw. Missing lessons again. Sighs.

IDIOT

2010-02-03T20:56:00.002+08:00

I feel like a complete idiot whenever i enter tutorials now. That feeling sucks, when you know yr classmates are way ahead of you, and you are really an idiot, duno anything. I hate the feeling to the max. I come home everyday feeling very tired, it is real tired. Ya, i din regret my choice, i chose to be an OGL, i know i shouldnt be complaining, but pls, i am also human. I have feelings too okay, let me jus release some stress here anwyays.

Life's been pretty good cause i managed to bond with my matriculation grp ppl. Mg 6 rawks, the people are really awesome. Today we had mg outing, but den due to circumstances, we stayed in sch and we organised captain ball math with different balls for them, sth to bond as well as to let them ssweat it out. ahha. My grp got a korean guy called sangyong, andd i tell u his piano skills are awesome, oh wow like totally freak me out. AHAH! I know the ppl much better. Tml is the last day to bond with my MG, i think i will miss them super badly. Should be having some sort of surprise for them tml.

Meanwhile, i am also advertising china desk man, this time round without the lecture, ard 22 ppl bah. Including juniors jing yu, stacy and jeremy. Hope they dun pangseh man. I awlays see them 3 together! LOL.

My mg got this girl call jiayi, she jus transffered to AJC, but she is damn sweeet, she wrote a letter to us MGLs to thank us, she gone too sudden le! ORhs.

Me and eehong now super scared, we all think we damn stupid in class now. We need to buck up, so our solution is, i teach him chem he teach me math jude teach us bio/ LOL/ I failed my bio test man by 4 marks according to hazel which is oh my gosh, and our class did badly in the entire level. This is damn cock. Today had math test, hope i did okay.

I need to chiong GP project now. Shrugs, later den pia hw. Today me christine and amanda was like saying orientation rawks and everything, but den we finally came to a conclusion that studies ultimately rules. Damn, i swear i will mug full scale after next friday. For now, i have to make do, i hope none of the teachers will scold me man, for not finishing up tutorials, it is really taxing. Give me some time, i prove to you all durin common test. Being an OGL doesnt mean my results suck cock.

I love the pokemon cheer created by zijie, TO OWN THEM IS MY CAUSE. HAHA.

Updatign soon, now is chiong time. Cya/

orientation!

2010-01-30T00:07:00.004+08:00

First and foremost, i would like to express my heartfelt gratitude to all those who remembered my birthday on 26 January 2010. I am really touched by the smses and wishes i had in sch. Thanks so much. Thanks S02 for the surprise i had in sch, thanks for the present, i love it a lot. There are a lot of thanks i would like to say but now i am damn tired to continue.

I jus came home after eating out with some spartans ppl. IT is a long day today for me, being an orientation group leader is really fun but tiring. I love my mg grp, cause when they are hype out they are damn enthusiastic. Thanks bryan, peiqi and amira for helping me out to facilate the jc1s too. You guys rock, it is damn fun to be in this grp, we will have a lot of cranky ideas coming out and then we jus carry it out impromptu, its totally different during the ogl camp. Not only them, the entire spartans are damn united and fun now. I am super happy to be part of this clan.

Tml will be an even long day for me. Having meeting all the way from morning to evening. I need to slp now. Updating soon.

SPARTAAAAA!

2010-01-23T19:47:00.002+08:00

Today was a tiring day! HAAH! But it was awesome. Had clan meeting with SPARTANS! We tried to learn finish all the dance and finally its done. Next week is the start of the JC1s coming in! Time to play!

Met with zhanlun, ahmad and ruishen for breakfast at bpp mac. Den zi jie they all came and we proceeded to zijie house to practise our dance. Zi jie house is super special, the lift can be directly to the door. LOL. The top of the roof is damn nice oso. ahha. Other than practising dance, we had bonding sessions too. We played the PIG game taught to us by demas who came later. I got tricked by bryan who made me jump from level 0 to 5, argh. Only demas din kena, den we all dao him, damn funny.

Learnt a lot of new cheers, i love my clan, cuz they are a bunch of funny enthu people. AHAH! After ogl camp we are more bonded than before, ahha. Took bus after clan meetin with demas, shengkiang and ahmad. Alighted at bukit panjang den took 975 with ahmad and sk before we parted ways. Ate dinner with ahmad. AHAH. I jus realised we stay super near to each other. We even live on the 11th floor! LOL.

After eating i went to cut hair, next week is fun and super tiring! I dread bio test, i swear i will conqueer it! I shall study hard tonight!

Oh i am so excited, next tues 26th JANUARY is my bdae! I am turning 18! YAY! I wonder how many people will ever rmb my bdae? AHAH! But damn cui, i have bio test on that day. ARGH! GOD PLEASE BLESS THE BDAE BOY TO DO WELL!

Time to bathe, wash up and do my hw (:

New Strategy

2010-01-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

I am super inspired by the book i mentioned earlier in my previous post. I realise it is time to change my strategy. I am tryin my level best to utilise it, i hope it can show a little bit of success.

Just finished differential eqn tutorial, with a few parts unsure. Next i am goin to do bio. Den chem.

This week is another hectic week, with chem quiz on friday with all the reagents and conditions and then thurs have GP dianogstic test. Tml after sch got clan meetin to finish learning our clan dance. I think will end very late. Tml got Math quiz, sian ji puah. Mdm song nagging forever never ends. LOL.

I am going to end my post with this famous adidas slogan:

" Impossible is just a small word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it."

ITS damn inspiring to me, duno if it works for you. AHAHA.

Bye.

G**** Sharing! EEE

2010-01-16T17:43:00.003+08:00

Went back to school today for OGL stuff. Finally i learn the dance alr. After that ate lunch with limin, shihan, waileong, ahmad and weijie at long john. AHAH! We sat in long john for damn long, cuz the sharing sessions were awesome. LAugh and laugh den there were the eerie moments. Shant mention here, but goosebumps/.

AHAH, after that we parted den i go find weekuan den we walked to my house for tuition session. Today quite slack. Cuz the stuffs are basically recap. Well, i seriously love chem now. AHAH.

Right now, i have awesome lot of homework to complete.

I am currently reading a book by adam khoo and gary lee: secrets of successful teens. IT is great, a self improvement book with great strategies to prepare yrself in this stressful year.

I shall go rest a while before chionging. SEE yea./

First week!

2010-01-15T20:13:00.002+08:00

This week is finally over. Wah, i feel very tired all of a sudden. I dun like JC 2 life at all.

Today is the worst day cuz i practically have all subjects lesson, all my H2 plus CSE plus PE.

I had bio test today, well din really study for it cuz ytd while i was studying, i fell asleep totally cuz i was damn tired yesterday.

Played pool today and the day before, quite shiok, but the tiredness is makin my mood crazy, play a while also tired.

Tml still got orientation stuff on.

My hw is damn haywire, today ms aw gave us damn lot to do. Wahlau eh.

Den durin math lesson, mdm song come kajiao me sia, ask me do extra 2 qn. I think she thinks i bored, but wat the hell. I was studyin bio underneath my math. LOL!

I am damn engaged during GP now due to my awesome GP teacher.

AND Now i am being used as an example during CSE lesson. LOL thanks to eehong and mr lim/

Thats all for now.

I shall go for a short break.

2nd day!

2010-01-13T00:24:00.002+08:00

I am postin for tuesday post. Cuz i am currently taking a break from my bio homework. I finally get a hang of how to do dihybrid qns. Well, procrastination took over me and i din bother trying out the qns during the hols. Now i am glad i am back on track.

So mon was the start of school. Quite awesome, cuz able to see all my friends from s02 again and it feels great to be back. The boys have become even more united than before le damn happy=) The best thing to celebrate is, i finally have a permanent GP teacher, his name is mr su ratch( pardon me if i spell wrongly). He is jovial but can be quite serious when it comes down to serious work. My interest in GP is aroused thanks to him. Hopefully i can learn as much as i can from him and do well for As!

11 January is also a significant day for those who have taken their results. Congratulations to those who have done well. Congrats to weihao too, for pwnin the school. LOL!

Tues was a long day but tiring. I finally understood why humanities teachers are able to stand and speak for hours without feeling tired. They have the ability to cause you to fall asleep.

Alright, Pioneer Junior College open house is until tml! So to all secondary 4 peeps may consider coming down to see! LOL! I am like advertising. Hope to see more CSS students comin to pioneer.

Alrights, tml is a short day, cant wait to rest. I shall continue with bio hw.

Zzz/.

OGL camp over!

2010-01-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

Just came back from OGL camp ytd, it was fun but very tiring. I think everyone there is awesome! This word is kinda addictive. Cuz it is a cheer! It goes like this:

Awesome,

Oh WOW!

Like totally freak me out.

I mean right on( clap clap)

I mean right on(clap clap)

I mean right on( clap clap)

PJ cheer is number 1!

This cheer is damn cool! I am in the grp SPARTA for the camp. All the games, cheers and ppl were great! The counciliors who planned it were really good.

Well, this is for preparation for the JC 1s coming in 2010. So i hope all goes well.

Off to work. Hols are ending in 2 days time!

OMG this is crazy./

Last of 2009!

2009-12-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

Alright, i chose this day to blog since it is the last day of 2009. Anythin that belongs to the past is goin to be over in half an hour time.

With the start of 2010 comes great responsibility again, and its a crucial year for me, cuz i will be sitting for my GCE A levels Examinations near the end of the year. I pray hard that everything goes smoothly for me. I will set a firm target for myself. 3As includin pw, 3Bs includin my hmt.

My resolutions also include good health and safety for my family, friends and myself. I hope there can be more fun and outings after As. I dun wan any bad luck for the year, i wan good luck only.

Wish everyone all the best for their endeavours!

Lookin forward to OGL camp next week.

Updating soon. Bye!

Merry Christmas & Boxing day!

2009-12-26T02:21:00.002+08:00

LL! I wasted this entire week slackin. Finished watching 2 dramas, the king of snooker and DIE again by tvb. Shiok i must say, but i got hooked on them and placed my work aside. lol. I count the number of days left to school, hmm, about 2 weeks.

Had a gatherin for TNT on mon. A simple dinner. But i loved the fun. It feels good to be with the rest.

thurs wanted to play bball since everyone can. Woke up super early in the end when i go out rain, den bball cancelled, so i spent my time at gene house watchin NBA and pool game live! LOL! After that went to ball when rain stop. Shit, my knee injury is back. ARgh. Duno why too. At night celebrated dinner as it was mum's bdae at IMM longbeach restaurant. Not bad.

Somemore upcomin fun, bbq party at ts house on sun, yay! Totally lookin forward to it.

Den its ogl camp, hopefully i can make more friends.

Merry christmas and boxing day ppl! Hope u guys have fun!

I am gifted so are you!

2009-12-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

Alrights! Updates!

Sun went town shoppin with mum, ahha i was on a shopping spree, bought 3 pairs of shirt at bugis street and a pair of bball shoes at queensway. Mum sponsored me those, while i bought an i pod touch for $308 myself. Damn pain, but worth it, shiok. Wanted to buy the 32 gig one but den no money, so in the end bought the 8 gig one. Tired but happy.

Mon went lib to study alone as usual, den did the usual routine. Tuesday went studying with jing en at woodlands lib, only manage to complete 1 chapter of math. Jing en even better, studied 3 chapters of bio. Wed stayed at home to relax and study, but idled my time away. AHAH! Trying to download movies to put into my i touch. Dad jus came back from china, and he bought 2 i phones and gave 1 to me. Siao man, he said the i phones were damn cheap, i tot fake one, lol! But i tried the functions, they are awesome. Oh great, now i have an i phone as well as a i pod touch. NVM! decided to share with sister.

I hate math i hate math. Esp applications of differentiation and the grraphs chapters. I cant believe up till now i haven finish math. Its like what the fk man. I left with 2 more chapters. AH. Heng chem tuition for tml is postpone to mon, seems like i have more time for chem after which. I need to read my cse le.

I think Adam khoo is really good. I am so inspired and motivated by him. Though i still procrastinate, but den it feels good havin a long term goal. I better stop procrastinating now. LOL!

okie, back to math. Let me conqueer the sickeening APGP. Bye.

Chem tuition

2009-12-12T14:37:00.002+08:00

Yo yo yo! Here to blog again. Last week was quite fruitful for me, at least i do make it a point to begin my muggin. Jing en couldnt make it on thurs so i went to cck lib to study alone. I stayed at lib from 1 to 9. Of cuz got take breaks in between la, did math, wah i hate graphing techniques that chapter, keep drawing stupid graphs, make me damn sian. Den i read through bio genetics chapter, trying to digest here and dere, din understand the chi square thing, but will find a way to. Read through applications of integration also. When i return home i went for a run, ahha, i love runnin in the night. It is damn cooling. I did the same thing on friday too. HAHA! I have decided to make it a routine, at least i get things done.

Today i had chem tuition. The tutor is my sister friend friend. He used to be from RV den go hwa chong, now major in chem. He damn punctual la, he supposed to come at 3 but he arrived at my house at 2.45. HAAH! Nvm, hes a nice guy. Hopefully my chem will improve greatly under his coaching! AHHA!

After tuition just surf the net randomly, wanted to watch some movies on TV but realise got no shows. Okays, den msn chat with TNT-ians was hilarious, mans talk. AHAH!

I am going to resume mugging now. Math time. Bye.

Finally updated!

2009-12-08T12:09:00.004+08:00

Hello ppl! IT has been ages since i updated. So i am gonna do a long update today. AAH, not so detailed, just a summary though.

Holidays have started and 2 weeks have actually just passed. Considering the fact that real lessons are resuming on 11 january, i think that i have a lot of time. Now is like in the holiday mood alr. I better resume the muggin mood. LOL.

So, on the 22nd of november, i went on a science immersion trip to melbourne. It was a totally fun and enriching experience for me. HAH, even though i dun fancy most of the lectures cuz i really feel like sleeping. Throughout the trip, i made lots of new friends, mostly the ones i hang out with would be judes and the S01 ppl. Nonetheless, the others were great too. Took a lot of interesting photos as well. I swear i will miss every night of stay, cuz it was the bachelor session among the guys, and kendric's innocence nv fail to make me laugh. Benedict's crap throughout the entire trip had a drastic laughing effect on me, together with kendric's innocence. The university of melbourne is beautiful, and i was thinkin, perhaps one day i may go dere and study? But still, grades are the most important and i hope i can enter a desired course in the uni here in Singapore first. The proportion of the food in Australia is really big, and i couldnt finish it man, also, you practically have to eat western for every meal. Kinda miss Singapore food too. Well, i guess there is really nth much i can say le, just that i enjoyed myself greatly. Photos are up on facebook, so do check it out.

The following week, celebrated eehong birthday too with class guys except yew cheng cuz he needs go sch for briefing. We tio cheated by the taxi uncle, who drove us to jurong east while we wanted jurong west sports complex. AHAH! Ate at sakura, wow, the food is great. After which we went jurong point to buy eehong basketball, HAHA! Yew cheng if u are reading this u dun forget $30 u owe me! AHAH! Den we went arcade. Judes practically spam his money on the time crisis III lol. Photos are up on facebook and an unglam video of eehong eating wasabei! AHAHA! And i tried wasabei sashimi for the first time, i dun like the sashimi taste! I swear i wun eat that again!

i did metro SIF duty on 2nd december together with ben, sha, xinhui, qiu and jing en. AHAH! Very fun but tiring. I did the outer section. Me and Jing en was like lookin out for good customers while seein if there are any chio bu around, LOL! Damn funny, later on, the s15 ppl came. Kerjyn did with me outside, and we all did the same thing! AHA! There was a salesgirl near us, den at the end of our shift, KJ and me wanted to go see her name, lol! Den no chance cuz she bz, den we went home, LOL! I was damn tired when i reached home, cuz i did the whole session from 10 am to 8 pm. I did manage to know kerjyn better! I want to go his house one day sia, best is he organise bbq! AHA.

Yesterday was kinda cheated by shijie by his outing, by going to park oasis dere, and we played bball, LOL! Gene played and in the end he sprained his ankle, he was winnin against the other team, but suay, HAHA. The bruise on my leg is visible after rubbing it and i do hope i can recover soon. Me, kangyao and gene then waited for han, sj and sam and terrence to come before we go to terrence condo play. AHHA! It was really fun as i remembered the old days we always go ts house. Den Ts ah ma will cook for us to eat den its damn yummy! HAHA! Grats to ts for finally gettin his love liao. And ts is damn pro man. He sleep durin lecture and play everyday and in the end score almost straight As. He even got in math chem and bio olympiad haha but he pon. He got h3 chem. Nice one ts, that time after Os not happy with results now also do so well. I hope i can do well for As can le, just one last hurdle. Very scared, i dun wan it to end up like O levels.

Today suppose to meet liang at cck to return me money but she forget. Den i go buy lunch before going home, Now i am bloggin, later going to gym with Han. I really need to train for my fitness, i am so unfit, i dun wan to enter NS early! AHHH. I am gonna make full use of my remaining holidays man, study+ fitness+ play with friends. These 3 will be the top priority for now, i couldnt care about other things le. Thursday i am going on a muggin session with jing en, mug mug mug! Better regain the mood.

GTG, shall update soon! Cya!

PROMOTED!!

2009-11-12T18:22:00.002+08:00

Just came back home not too long ago. Today is the release of results for all pioneers. Got back mine, was quite surprised for my chem and GP, i din know it would pull up. Nevertheless, its over, i need to work harder next year.

Sadly to say, i have not performed up to my expectations this time round, i hope next year gets better.

Watched 2012 with class guys jus now, like the effects, but the storyline sucks, ahha.

A lot of China desk stuffs are coming up, need to settle them slowly.

ARgh, just realise i haven touch my hw, sian.

I swear i will do tonight.

Bye.

PW ended

2009-11-11T17:43:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of the pw cycle. I am jubilant. 8 mths of hard work just for this day. Had GPF filing today only. Den played bball with class. My knee still hurts.

Den had OGL interview, hope can get in bah, if cannot also nvm. Played a moment of truth with belle and eehong and judes and gabs. LOL!

Went to find ms tan after that cuz she wanted to see me. AHAH! The suspense is out. She gave me advice which is very good! Thank you so much for identifying my weakness, i guess i knew the problem. Thanks for not giving up on me despite me not listening a lot to ur lessons during the short period you were with us. You are really a good teacher, i am alr slowly adjusting to yr lessons le. Next year maybe is mr wong take over le, but jus like wat you said, no matter how many times the teacher is changed, we have to take control of our studies ourselves. I shall revise bio during the hols no matter how busy my schedule is. I wun give up on bio, yeah you are right, i shd jus try letting go of lecture contents, and try questions out. I understand your intentions, thanks.

After that went to mac to eat with class ppl, den rush off to meet shijie they all. Just reached home now.

Quite tired.

Tml is results day, my wish is everyone in S02 to be promoted. <3 S02.

09S02 BBQ

2009-11-09T16:13:00.002+08:00

Just a short summary of last week, actually nth much. Jus that was practising OP almost every single day. Not to be kidding, the number of practises we had due to all the pw slots are crazy. Just kept practising like nobody's business. I could basically reiterate the entire script anywhere anytime. LOL. Even so many days past i still haven forget it.

Had the real OP on fri, was kinda worried cuz i scare i would be affected by my nervousness. But it turned out well, except for Q and A, i am jus afraid i would not score for it. I hope i can score overall for pw, just a B and i am happy (: Oh ya, made 2 new friends too, earnest and ling ying from S06. Thanks for nodding when i was presenting too!

Went to buy the BBQ stuffs with class boys on sat. YAY! All 6 of us got together and we organised the BBQ for 09S02 ytd! AHAHA! It was a great success under the leadership of our chef aka tau kay yew Cheng. LOL! He is great when it comes to dealing with food. LOL. I am glad most of the girls turned up too! AHA! Come to think of it, my current class is so much different from 4/5. AHA! 4/5 boys will come together but the girls arent really very united bah, maybe thats why whenever we try organising outings/BBQs/Chalet, it turns out that the number of girls will always be super duber little. But S02 still quite different! AHA! <3>
Stayed at judes condo at the bottom till like 4 plus, den the stupid security guard chased us out! LOL. Den me gabs and eehong went to yew tee point kopi tiam rest. HAHA! I tried to do math, managed to solve a few qn, but my brain cells are exhausted and i fell asleep until they called me to wake up. HAHA!

Reached home around 7 plus in the morning. Den sleep all the way to 3 plus. LOL. Alrights, i think i had my fun le, so i should regain the muggin mood! HAHA! But first i need to clear my table full of my files. Have been procrastinating for so many days le, dad been scolding me. AHAH!

Wed is the end of my pw cycle, i am happy cuz the day has finally come. Been tortured by it for duno how many months, glad its ending. Hope i can get a decent grade.

GTG,Bye.

OP OP OP!

2009-11-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

YEa! I am so excited, because op is on friday which means the tiring pw cycle is ending ending and ending!

Grats to everyone. Had OP rehearsal with ms yeoh today, gave it my best shot, have been practising a lot of times at home, even my mum and my second sis became my audience ytd. hha. I am glad it turned out well, ms yeoh say i only need to improve 1 thing more, den it be perfect, my facial expression. Arrgh, mus learn from eehong sia, his is better than mine. Nevertheless, i hope that i can do as well as today or even better! AHAHA! i wan High EE~! Whoops. Grats to eehong grp, cuz they are EE.

OMG! today chem lecture was horrible, couldnt catch up. AHA! Need to go mug on chem le, losing out a lot. Math receive a certificate, but i think my math is nt strong enough, a weak A is no good.

Today mrs tan speech damn funny, lol.

Shit, i think i am addicted to gaming. LOL.

A lot of free periods tml, hahaha, gonna mug. Seeya!

Go play game first, later den do hw, bye.

Tiring week

2009-10-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

Jus back from kids read as usual. Today the kids were kinda bubbly and noisy and it was hard controlling them. But christine did a great job, togeether with huijie, cindy, gabs and the rest of them.

Went school late in morning cuz got no mock, den had pw with vendor. DEn affter sch practised op with my grp and filmed the video. I hope the video can link well. Sian, later got to think of how to edit the video. ARgh. Den after video filming played pool with zihao and judes, den belle came and play oso. Saw ms tan after playing pool, she smile at me and reminded me to see her after op. I wonder what is it for. I think i guess i would be getting into remedial since my bio so lously. Sian la, the suspense is killing me.

All the best to everyone taking chi on mon.

All the best to me taking op.

I hope everyone can turn up for the bbq, it is like the first thing we guys plan for the class. Even though the duration of bbq may be short la, but i hope everyone can come.

Love So2/:)

relieved

2009-10-30T08:45:00.002+08:00

Alrights, wr is handed in ytd, i felt a surge of relief le. Even though i got a feeling it is not well done. lol. But nvm. I shall now focus on my OP.

Ytd went yisiew house to do pw model making, not bad. I think kinda cool. lol.

Actually this week go sch oso waste of time.

I kind of straightened out my thoughts alr. It is not worth it thinking at all. I also have my own life. It feels kind of relieved that i do not have that reaction anymore. Grats to me.

Liberated.

Muggin thru the night

2009-10-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

Now is 1237 am, and i am still doing wr, i think i shd be on track now, but i am still very slow, i just keep psychoing myself that i can do it i can do it. I want that A badly.

Today was a bad day. Memorised my script in the morning, then to screw it up when i was presenting. Eehong's group was great, after listening to each and everyone of them speak, i was amazed, even the vendor praised them greatly. It set me thinking of a lot of things, maybe my grp shd have been proactive, perhaps things can turn out better. Nevertheless, there is still a bit time left, i shant give up. What doesnt kills u makes you stronger. (:

Indeed i feel tired when it comes to pw, i find no joy in doing it. On a brighter note, the pw cycle is coming to an end. I cant wait for that day to come.

My knee is still hurting since promos, i am starting to get worried for it.

Felt quite irritated this week, i hope things turn out better. Countdown to end of pw (: Hurray!

PW--> A Deadly subject

2009-10-25T20:47:00.002+08:00

I am getting very very tired over pw. I want it to end, end end end end end!

Been editing the wr since ytd until today and i am not done yet.

I know none are having a good time, jus bear with me.

Someone once told me that god gives us challenges knowing we can overcome them, when we meet them we jus have to savour and slowly consume them. Every path in life, you will meet with a challenge, it is jus a matter of fact whether you fail or succeed. I want to be the one to succeed.

I really want to do well for pw, pls, let me overcome it.

Tml having 5 hours of break, i must really utilise it well.

Sometimes you make me feel disgusted. Srlsy. I cant stand it.

Bye.

A smile a day keeps all troubles away

2009-10-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

I am just back from CIP at the kidsread not too long ago. I really enjoy my time there, the kids are really innocent and cute. Most imptly, i am doing kids read cip with a bunch of enthusiastic crazy hyper ppl from S02. ahha, i find it heartwarming just to see a smile from the kids. Going there after a hard day at sch is relaxing.

Went sch for pw to see ms yeoh, i am starting to worry for my written report. Haix, i pray hard everything is smooth, god bless me.

Why do you feel like a stranger to me now?

Unexplained.

Not an emo post

2009-10-22T19:36:00.002+08:00

Had CIP yesterday and today, felt daamn tired. Damn lib work.

Shit, tonight i need to start working my way through pw.

I love playing pool with judes, haha. I think a lot of counciliors recognise us liao lo, we always go sanctuary, lmao.

Jus had a random thought of the day. Fate must be playing a prank on me. hah. I feel that things are no longer the same as before and now, slightly different.

Yet i duno how to describe it. If i can read minds, how good it can be, aha.

Follow my title today, no emo post, jus a random thought!

Mixed feelings

2009-10-20T20:02:00.002+08:00

I duno wat to type on for this post. If you ask me if i am satisfied with my results, i arent. Its way below my expectations bah, maybe i am jus unrealistic.

I did passed all subjects, but only math maintained. Chem and gp dropped. Bio and cse improved a bit.

Jus now i went for the h3 briefing, to think i wanna go have a try at it, but lookin at my sucky grades, i doubt i qualify. Went to consult mdm song for it, she gave me some advice, i think shes right.

Guess what? I dun even have to ask my parents, the first thing they asked was, "how was yr results?" jus now.

I told them my grades and in that instant, they started bombarding me with questions. " DO YOU KNOW WITH SUCH GRADES, YOU WUN EVEN BE ABLE TO ENTER UNI! U NOE OR NOT. GP SO LOUSLY, U BETTER BUCK UP MAN"

This is just the appetizer, shant elaborate more. No need to even raise my question of H3, a straight NO.

Yup, these are my parents, well, on the optimistic side, i shd be thinking that what they are doing are for my own good. Yep, i mus start to psycho myself.

On a brighter note, i am glad i did quite okay for my op today. It was quite impromtu, but i tried my best to avoid the mistakes i made last week. Thanks judes for reminding me. The answering question was kind of crap, i actually slipped of a tongue and said i started saying the singapore pledge for 17 years of my life! Epic. lol. But the teacher was kinda impressed by my crappy answer, well, thank god.

My wishlist for this year, i hope the entire class will be together again next year, we will all get promoted! Its really fun studying and playing together!

Alrights, need to chiong pw now, else i will be screwed.

Enough of negative emotions,

Bye.

Long weekend!

2009-10-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

Last week is boring. PW is boring.

Interhouse games rawks, i love darwin, darwin got second! Damn happy. Din played well for pool, but it is an experience.

Learning journey is boring. But a slack day. Maxwell food rawks, din try tian tian chicken rice. LOL.

OP was over for my grp as in the trial one. We still got a lot of things need to touch up. But way to go.

Next week is results, quite worrying, i am afraid i wun do well. NVM, i shall work harder, jus hope wun retain becuz of CSE.

Chiong pw, bye.

Tired.

2009-10-12T18:30:00.002+08:00

School has started, nt extended time table but a lot of pw stuff. Quite tiring.

Pw lecture was still as hilarious as usual.

But enrichment day is quite boring for me. I anyhow do the art thing.

Had darwin meeting afterwards, everyone was highing, hope tml everything is a success.

After that went for mr chan meeting. Den had instructions by mr ng. Den returned home with dan.

I got AE for I and R. Sickeening.

This week still need to have a rehearsal for OP.

Shit man, everything is coming at one shot, my written report is not yet done too.

Time to get things started. Tml wish me lotsa luck, i dun wan pull my team down. Hope at least a third bah (:

Better.

2009-10-11T12:17:00.003+08:00

Slping over 12 hours, makes me feel better. But not totally.

Thank goodnesss i have my blog, at least able to vent out my feelings into it.

A lot of possibilities, but none will work out.

Pessimism seems to be winnin optimism.

gah, shdnt be thinkin that way.

I shall just bury myself into the pool of workload waiting for me. And PW as well.

Short post, goin out to train pool with my team. We hope at least can get third.

Wish me luck.

Sad

2009-10-10T20:02:00.002+08:00

I wish mr ng is here by my side now, giving me advice.

I want to know what else i can do to amend probably my mistake.

Why shd i even give a damn care abt all this?

Wasted a lot of time today.

Unnecessary ones too.

Praying doesnt make me feel better.

I wish things will be better.

What doesnt kill you makes you stronger (: thanks panyu.

BORED.

2009-10-09T18:50:00.002+08:00

Today had prelimary round for interhouse game. Almost screwed it up cuz of nervousness. Thank god, i regained composure in the end. And thanks to the refree who gave me chance.

Ytd went jp shop to buy shirt for melbourne. Walked ard den in the end decide to buy double layer de. Means can wear 2 in 1 or just 1 by itself. Quite reasonable price.

I AM BORED BORED BORED, i dun wan PW to come. AHHH, i want to rest. Sian, left a few more days only.

Tml bball, den go judes house.

I pray for my little wish to come true(:

Hope things turn out well. =D

No promos!

2009-10-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day after promos. AHHA. Felt damn happy.

Went out to meet eehong, gabs, huijie and we go bukit timah play LAN.

Damn fun. LOL and hilarious. Esp CS. LOL.

Meanwhile, hope the ppl who went sentosa enjoyed themselfves.

The ppl who took physics are also liberated today.

I wan an 09S02 chalet. HAHA.

After game, went back lot 1. Went to roam around and decided to go to lib to find some books for pw. Saw quanxiang senior studying too, and chatted a while with him. Wow, a pretty good chat, jiayous for As.

Den went to mac. Zan came later. Had a great chillin session. Then we took 300 back to our homes.

Tml supposed to go judes house but last min cancelled.

Nvm, decided to go JP shop for clothes for melbourne trip. Gonna play. Bye.

PROMOS OVER!

2009-10-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

YAYE JASPER ANNOUNCES THAT HIS PROMOS ARE OVER, he is gooin to party for the next few days, and heck care abt his results temporary.

Today CSe was okay la, but den, mr ching suan me at the beginning lol, and i forgot one of the points to write in my essay, so i anyhow crapped it out. I only scared i write out of point, but god bless i hope i din. At the end of the essay, mr lim walked past me and ask in jkin manner whether A or not. I only smile back, cuz i dun think i will get A. LOL. I din really study a lot for cse la, cuz not a lot of time. I just pray i can improve from my mid years, i got E for mid years for yr info. If i can improve, i swear i will mug mug mug harder. LOL. If not, i will keep seeing teacher for consultation. LOL.

Good luck to all students taking H2 physics. Jiayous man.

Post promos activities are coming up. Hope they be fun. I am gonna enjoy myself for the next few days and get ready for PW.

I badly wan an A for PW, if not a B. I will work harder, and put in even more effort for OP and written report.

Wish me luck.

Gonna play, see ya.

H2 MATH

2009-10-05T18:40:00.002+08:00

Yaye, math is over! Whoops, i think i will do better for it than my chem, that is what makes me happy. LOL.

The paper is tedious la, couldnt complete a few parts, but i did my best liao. Aimin for A, hope my wish can come true. AHA! Some self consolation will be the paper is 100 marks so u can minus 30 marks but still can get A ! AHAHA

Tml is cSE, gotta jiayous, cant let mr lim down.

LOL! duno who set this rule, fail CSE means retain.

DAmn.

I cant wait for the bell to ring at 330 tml, den i will be free! Whoops.

Mug time, cya.

Focus

2009-10-04T14:51:00.002+08:00

Oh my god oh my god. I am losing focus. I feel damn restless when i am studying these 2 days. Not becuz i have finish studying, but den i jus cant seem to focus well.

I feel quite disgusted now at myself that one part of me wans to work hard, the other jus feel like slacking.

I seem to be affected by things easily now. And my mind will start to wander off to somewhere. This shd not be the case right, damn its a vicious cycle.

Everyone is working hard, i shd too right? Why cant i jus stay focused. Ahh.

Left with CSE and math. Both afternoon papers. Lucky i no chi cuz CSE and chi same day. CAn die.

okay la, i really need to focus.

I go memroise my CSE and pia math liao. If i have time, i come back blog. It seems like only through bloggin, i feel so much better.

控制心魔，避免魔性大发，无法收拾。

Disappointed

2009-10-02T23:38:00.002+08:00

Jus ytd, i have so much vigour and confidence. Today after sitting for chem, i nearly fainted.

I am demoralised by paper 1 and paper 2 i pracically feels it is shit.

To think my goal is so high for an A. Now i think i pass i alr very happy.

Cant believe i screwed my paper badly.

I blame no one but myself.

No use giving excuse if u are weak.

Shall not be complacent for math.

And cse.

Jus came out with this, a smile a day keeps all troubles away.

I hope i can do that.

Alright wish me luck.

Happy birthday terrence.

HAPPy Children's day!

2009-10-01T13:47:00.002+08:00

Yay! Bio is officially over! AHAH! I am reallie reallie happy. I been praying that the paper wun be too difficult and tada, it was still managable. What i studied all come out. Phew, ytd i wanted to study late night again, but my body couldnt take it and i doze off. When i woke up, i tot i was finished cuz i haven studied mitosis and meiosis and virus. And somemore the in front all half past six. Quite worry, i was thinking if i were to fail bio, i am really irrcorrigible.

Phew, i guess the paper is to make us get promoted after all, i swear i will mug hard for bio from now on. LOL. Yay, another tough battle fought. But i am happy. When i am happy, i will mug more, yes yes i will mug super bloody hard for chem. I wan my A plssssss! After tml, i can relax for a while, den pia CSE and math. Den its over! OVER!

I hope i wun disappoint you this time ms tan, hope when you are markin my script, it is not full of rubbish.

Whoops, the econs ppl are having their paper around now bah. Jiayous yeah. The battle is getting more and more exciting, rawk with chem. There is planning again this time, and i hope i can finish it cuz mid year i din finish. AHAH. It wun be that lucky for me again. 40% TYS, i hope i can do it.

Yes i will i can. I wun write rubbish tml. Ms aw, i will maintain my A. No more fluctuations.

Muggin time!

A penny for thoughts

2009-09-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

Today is the worst day of my life. I woke up feeling groggy and weak. And i still spend the whole day to memorise my bio. I know i shd not complain since i lin shi bao fo jiao. But den, it is really hard juggling the memory stuff and my weak body is failing me.

I went to see doc jus now. Got flu as usual, man, this is the second time i am falling sick within 2 mths. My body's constitution is weak. And the worst thing is, this week is promos, one mistake made and i be retained.

Howeveer, it is quite miraculous that i managed to survive until now. Jus now as i was memorising, there were many a times whereby i jus feel like sleeping and giving up. But den i tot of how disappointed mr wong and ms tan will be if they were to marked my exam script with rubbiish written inside. I already disappointed them once, and i dun wan to disappoint them again. With that thought, i force myself to memorise and move on. At least now i feel i am on track.

Maybe ms tan is right, i do have a phobia for illustration questions, i dread them. But i will try my best. I am sure i will not do very well at the end of my promos cuz i am not in a tip top condition. But i refuse to give up, the illness made me stronger and less distracted cuz i can just keep memrosing like nobody business.

Pls god, let me cross this hurdle in my life. Dun let me get fever. I wan to score for my promos. I dun wan to disappoint any of my teachers. I dun wan history to repeat like in O levels.

I am muggin hard, even though time is running out, i believe i can do it. Adam khoo taught me before that if i were to belive in myself, i will achieve my goal no matter how tough it is. I have the support of my family, friends and teachers.

I am not alone in this battle.

And i wun disppoint my teachers.

Back to bio.

GP!

2009-09-28T16:25:00.002+08:00

GP paper is finally over, after arduous sitting in the hall. The best thing is got air con, so shiok, can think in silence jus like at home. I am happy because what i studied came out. I only studied the cause and effects of envrionmental problems. Heng din come out solutions, else i will die. Paper 1 was managable, but paper 2 was a bit difficult. Couldnt complete AQ on time as usual, i really need to work on my time management. I hope i can pass GP well, prays.

After GP went to lib to write my cse essay, den consulted mr lim. Showed him my essays and he gave me advice. Thanks very much. I promise to score for CSE. LOL.

Den now i am home, oh man, i am feeling very lethargic becuz i am sick once again. I pray the fever dun come.

Gonna rest a while den pia bio le. Cya.

Getting sick

2009-09-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

Shit, i think i am getting sick. My throat aint feeling well. Walau, i dun wann fall sick.

Revised virus today, and GP all the way, gp is a lot so very tiring.

Something in my mind keeps me going. Fortunately for it, otherwise i wouldnt have survived for so long.

I need the motivation.

Was stunned that day when i received back my virus quiz with an essay comments by ms tan. She told me to find her if i have any problems or mr wong oso. Yeah, i am sry. She is right. I have a phobia towards illustration questions ever since in secondary schools. I really dread it. I need to overcome my phobia. Anyways thanks ms tan for the encouragement. I promise a decent grade for thurs paper. (:

Not much time is left. I need to clear out a lot of distractions now in my mind. Monday is GP paper, to say i am not scared is bluff u one. Nvm, i will try my best. Jus like wat mrs fazlin says, just give it my best shot and no need worry abt anything else.

Alrights, back to study.

累！

2009-09-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

我不知道自己还能够撑下去多久，这种滋味真的好难受啊！每天晚上想睡但是又需要付出这么多。一份耕耘，一份收获，我了解，但是要实践的时候，却是无比的难。

这次的年底考试，我一点信心也没有。

我很害怕，我和其他同学一样都感到万分紧张，我是不是给予自己太多压力？我并不知道，我只是不想重蹈覆辙，让自己空欢喜一场。

我行吗？

Promos promos!

2009-09-20T20:38:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh, promos are starting in 2 weeks time and i am not even done with my revision yet! These 2 days have been doing my bio bible, as i type more i revise more, and i like the shiok feeling, whoops. Actually i have a lot of things to say for last week, but den i shall cut it short.

I want to thank mr wong for giving me a chance, thank you for listening to me and giving me that chance. I promise i wun repeat the mistake agaain. Come to think of it, i was quite foolish after all, yup but thanks.

Had a great chat with mr ching on thurs after PE, keep laughing. LOL. He is still so funny. I will reduce the vulgarities level on my blog, LOL.

Math test wasnt too bad, but i think i wun get A le, cuz i din had time to finish the paper. Wasted too much time on MI.

My only consolation for that week was chem , got 23/30. But i am sure there are others who did better than me.

Stayed back on fri to do cse essay for mr lim. I waited and waited cuz got the J2s very urgent to hand in their theisis to him. I tried the confucianism essay and got 20/25. But den i still refered to notes, so it isnt really counted after all. I think he has high hopes on me, but den if i din do well for eoy, i am sry. Gonna see him for consultation next week. I really want to do well for CSE!

Got back english compre too, wasnt as bad as i expected. Got 28/50. Sian la, i dunno why i couldnt break out of this cycle, i think throughout the year i only failed one test for GP, den the rest is all C or D range. Hais, i am worried seriously. I want a B!

Did bio bible these 2 days, quite happy, ltr going to start chem and I and R.

blissful(:

unable to fathom

2009-09-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

I am confused confused and confused.

I feel helpless all of a sudden.

What exactly is the problem?

I keep askin myself how and how?

But i am jus stucked at it.

I tried to understand certain things, but to no avail.

The feeling sucks.

Knowing something you can do but at the same time you cannot do.

Have you had that helplessness before?

Everything simply does not make sense, illogical, non sequential

Is it my fault?

I hate it.

term 4!

2009-09-14T18:07:00.002+08:00

Whoops term 4 has jus begun. The day is long and i am starting to worry about lagging behind. But i am confident i can do it, my confidence will not be shatteered.

Had pw interview with the NE officer today, it was awesome, and he joked about us saying we were quite audacious to even send an interview request to the director immediately, LOL. AHAH, we wu4 da3 wu4 zhuang4 den finally got our interview settled. YAY! And my group decided to lie low now, and mugged pw from 7 october onwards after promos. 4 of us no chinese, ahha, i believe we can do well.

Math departmental test on friday, i better do well. Chem assignment on thurs, i mus do weelll too. Last sat had bball and awesome gathering with TNT, though we lost to the hwachong guys, paiseh, pulled them down. HAd lunch at jacks place and for the first time i ate steak! LOL! I am a buddhist but i dun care, lol. The meat is quite hard, ahha, not used to it. After which, we wanted to go out de lo, den drag and drag, in the end went home. LOL. Me and ren den went lot 1 get ice cream den take 300 home.

Sun i mugged and is quite productive. Just got home not too long ago, got tons of things to do. Shall put aside all my distractions first, getting promoted is more impt than anything.

Damn it, sometimes i feeel it is quite hard to control certain things, let nature take its course bah. I just dun wan the same old history repeating itself again, self denial.

Oh and Happy bdae amanda(:

End of the week~!

2009-09-11T17:46:00.002+08:00

whoops, jus how fast time flies. Sept hols are gone. I shant procrastinate further.

I am happy becuz NE branch decide to accept my pw group request for interview, it will be on monday. yay. I hope all memebrs will be present. God answered my prayers, thanks.

Today math lesson was boring. Only the consultation part seemed fun. There was a giant cockroach in the Lecture theatre, even mdm song was afraid of it. LOL, lucky nv fly, else a lot of ppl would have screamed.

Played bball with huijie, gabs, julian and another guy who is supposed to be my senior in css, his name is dilip. Was shocked to realise he was from css, he recognise my shorts first, LOL. Had a great time playing and chatting, den eehong came, he was sick so cannot play.

Recently a lot of ppl sick , ee hong got food poisoning i think instead of too much acid in stomach, judes got flu, and zandra caught a cold and cough too, hope they are allright, promos are comin, so mus takkaire man.

Alright, a lot of things to do, looking forward to bball tml. Time for chem energetics. Bye.

Race against time!

2009-09-11T02:02:00.002+08:00

Now is 2 am and i am blogging. Haven done much for the entire day except kept practising math. I am jus afraid of doing badly for department test 4, shall not let that happen.(:

Jus now did a consolidation of every subject topics to study for promos. Then i realise i dun noe how to write the heading for CSE. LOL. I doubt i will refer much to the notes, i will jus refer to the bible of essays i compiled, real model essays, with more coming from mr lim. Model essays are the best.

I think i belong to the panicky type. I cant help feelin a bit pressured when i see others chiongin hard. I think my mental state of mind is still not yet fully prepared to handle the incoming promos.

I read thru my chinese mei wen and jian bao, jus realise i could nv produce such excellent work again. Hai, this is the price to pay.

Math lesson is starting at 8 later, got lots of questions wan to ask mdm song, but not on integration, on differentiation! LOL. Better dun slp.

Alrights, time to compile bio notes. Bye.

NOOOOOOOOO!

2009-09-09T18:38:00.002+08:00

Damn it, i hate this. I have been praying that this will not come, no no and no. What the hell is wrong with me? Dun subject it to me anymore, cuz i hate it hate it hate it. Everything is in the mind, and i fuckin seem not to be able to contol my mind well.

Lously muggin in sch today, feel so unproductive, stupid math. Sometimes i wonder if maths is suited for me? Today is bad.

I hate experiencing all this, why things cant go on simple for me? Fk man. I thought everything will be peaceful now, but no.

Hell loads emo.

Insights

2009-09-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

These 2 days i am muggin, yeah muggin. But i think it is not enough, becuz once i returned home, i will be in a switch off mode, and when i am on my bed i will succumb to temptation. I mugged 8 hours of bio in sch with judes ytd, and today mugged for abt 4 hours in sch for math, den morning got 1.5 hr bio lesson and 1.5 CSE lesson. So i am very tired. And i jus realised i have forgotten certain concepts and it pissed me off.

Today is tuesday alr, am i am freaking slow. Others have already begun their revision, and me jus trying to clear workload. Damn it, if i dun work hard now, i guess my promos are finished. I wanted to finish math today but in the end i am stuck at a stupid calculus question and i couldnt finish it. Man, the math hols hw so much, i am trying to chiong all at one shot, but realise i am unable to do so.

I love the sch during hols. The lib is so conducive and so quiet. I can study quietly without anyone disturbing me or distracting me. These 2 days i am only pumping bio and math, i will try to pump in chem tml, gp on thurs and china studies on fri. Den pw is another worrying factor, i called ms lim from the NE branch for days and couldnt get thru her, pls god, dun let my chance for interview fly away. Ms yeoh also never give me the reply, i am getting worried.

Just some thoughts. I simply couldnt understand certain stuffs, it reminds me of the way me and koh worked. I dun like him and i guess he dun really fancy me cuz i din score for physics in the past. However, i still respect him, he and his lan lan. A lot of things which i see now really remind me of the past. I can almost relate to anything. Me and my foolishness, jus trying to prove koh wrong and it almost cost me my grades. haha. Now i think all my teachers are very good teachers, the only way i can thank them is to score well in their individual grades and not lag behind.

This time i will prove myself wrong. I jus realise ms tan is very nice and helpful. I will score in bio, i will.

Mug time. Bye.

Aadiperukku

2009-09-05T11:34:00.002+08:00

Ps if i spelt it wrongly. Yup, so ytd went for the event, it was kinda coolios, except i dun understand most of the time cuz it is spoken in tamil. However, the performances were fab, enjoyed it. AJC won lots of things, and the ppl were darn high, they were practically screaming and shouting at the top of their voices. The counciliors were great too, adam was cool by being the non chinese to speak tamil. The food was nice, but it was kind of spicy, and i prob wasnt used to it.

Before that, played pool with julian after sch, he damn pro. lol. Ytd had been a rather lucky day for me. For dunno wat luck, i actually got the highest for the cse test. I can assure you it is tyco, becuz i merely did fang xie. Mrs lee's profound sentence cao cong jie jian sinks into my head. LOL. I needed the arrow( mr lim's great essay outlines) to do well for cse. I think i shd be able to know how to study for it. Though i hate the subject, but rest assured i will still work hard for it. Now come to think of it, my teachers arent so bad after all. Just realise ms tan is a very good teacher, she will really go the extra mile to help her students. Ytd i had doubts den i called her den she immediately came out of the staffroom to help me. Thanks lots. I must also do well for bio, cannot let ms tan or mr wong down. That day on teachers day dolly mentioned then i realise that mr wong might be from CSS from the past, as he is taught by Ng tan.

As for chem, i must maintain, recently all my quizes were screwed. Ytd had chem test which i found was quite managable. I hope i can get a decent grade. Ms aw asked me that time whether i was stressed, and i told her quite. She then asked me to relax and find teachers if i have any problems. She is actually a very nice teacher, excpt she is very strict and tends to be fierce in class. I guess her objective is just to ensure we do not slack for the subject. I have alr screwed my chem spa, and sometimes whenever i see her, i feel a bit guilty. But i promise i will work hard for my promos.

For math, same thing, i must maintain. Same reasons for chem and i know mdm song had high expectations on me, i must not disappoint her jus like in department test 3, whereby everyone was scoring their As and Bs, whereas poor me has jus gotten an S. Her ususal sentence was " you nv study right?" I can only smile back. Math is my strongest subject, and i will do whatever it takes for an A. I am practical, no A for math means i am weak and it is time to improve. Promos wait and see.

Mrs fazlin is also a very nice teacher, she will try to create the atmosphere in GP. And i am loving GP lessons much more, though sometimes i think it is quite slack, but i will jus keep trying. My target for promos, C. I have not failed GP before, excpet my marks are always within the D range, when can i ever improve? I am weak in GP la, but i will keep trying.

Ytd met yufeng on 300 when i went home, chatted for a while, den we realise exams are round the corner, it is time to mug! AHAH!. "I have the confidence that i can achieve", this line is from pjc college creed. Yup i havve.

Targets for promos:

Math A
Chem A
Bio B
CSE B
GP C

I hope i can. Sept hols are here, i am not gonna waste it away.

GTG, bye.

Thoughts

2009-09-03T21:12:00.002+08:00

That day, i was looking through my stuffs, jus realise certain memories still remains intact, in fact i dun think i will be able to forget them. At a point in life, i told myself that i must move on and indeed i have. I have been foolish enough in the past, and i kept the false impression in my mind that i wun regret. But i do. Now den i realise, i wonder if it is too late?

The past still haunts me, but i guess i will jus have to move on.

New beginning.

Alrights, gonna study for chem test tml, may god bless me with an A pls!!

Bye(:

HAPPIE for once

2009-09-01T20:28:00.005+08:00

AHAHHA! I am happy, because today is holiday! AHAH! Happie teachers' day to all my beloved teachers who have taught me, pri, secondary and JC! WHoops, i had a great time ytd today. Gonna be long winded.

So ytd, early in the morning we had Aces day, it is a 3km walk along the canal outside pjc, ahha, my first time for Aces day not doing dance, ahhha, but it is quite fun, considering the fact that there were laugher and jokes along the way.

Den there was the concert, oh man, it rawks, the vp of the student council demas acted very well, lol, the imitation of the teachers part was hilarious. I rmb that in sec 2, my class acted mr rafeek for our CME performance, den in the end he so pissed off! LOL. I enjoyed all the concert totally, Amanda and christine was great too! They participated in be yourself day, and it rawked totally. AHAH. The day was awesome, with no lessons but fun and laughter all the way.

Yep, so after the concert, waited for zandra and dolly at concourse before returning to CSS together. Met rey along the way. Back at CSS, was damn excited and happy, a nostalgic feeling overwealmed me, ahha, the surroundings look super familar, ahah. Went to the canteen and saw many familiar faces, den went to GO to collect my yearbook. Oh man, it sux. Looks like a catalog, sicckenin.

Den went to find mrs anba and congrats her for her promotion to VP, ahha chatted for a while. Den its time for B ball! AHAH! At the same old territory 4/5 always play, ahahah. As usual, fun and laughter rawks my day. Even cheepeng joined us, yay! AHAH! It is so fun la.

After bball, went to imm with 4/5 guys and girls, as usual, the indecisiveness is there again, in the end ate swenson, oh man , the food proportion so small den my table ppl all kao pei kao bu. LOL! Then somemore so ex. Samuel one was damn funny, he ate the prawn shell, LOL. Den the guys not full so they went to mac to buy sundae, ahhaha.

Den we took group photo, den it is time to terrence's house! AAH! Great, TS house still rock! AHAH! He took out casino chips for us, den some of us played texas poker, LOL! Den the rest played guitar hero! OMG, samuel is legend, u listen the way he sing, GG sia. But then hes the only one except TS to pass everything, so ta ma de. AHAH! The whole night we laughed and laughed, damn damn damn funnie, AAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Then its time to return home. Took 985 with darren to CCK den we go 302 foodhouse there buy food cuz not full, den took 300 together as usual. Go back home tio kao bei by my father. Say wat exams coming, why still keep going out, but i dun care him, its not as if i will fail my exams wat. Tsk. Seriously, i tot my parents were the worst, but ts mother is more demanding, i feel that she and my father is somewat similar, both want their child to do super well in everythin. But den they din realise their actions make their children feel disgusted.

Aiya, shant elaborate, annyways slpt a lot today, slacked too! HAH! FEEL energised le, time to do PW~!

Happie bdae to my best buddie in pjc, julian ytd! =D

GRAEAT!

2009-08-29T22:33:00.002+08:00

Today is great, i am hyper hyper hyper. Woke up early in the mornin, den realised i was late, den heng father fetched me, den reached fajar. Lucky the match haven start. Den a lot of delays here and there, finally the match started. AHHA! YAY! TNT won! Well done brothers.

After which went to eat with ren they all, den chatted a lot, ahha, damn funnie, den took lrt with ren back to lot 1 to eat ice cream den take our usual 300 home. Along the way, kept laughin and laughin.

Slpt till 6 when i returned home, damn tired. Woke up den went to cut my hair cuz it is damn irritating. Den come home, slacked till now, which means , i need to conserve my energy to mug the rest of the night away.

Tired but worth it. BTw, i love pjc night study programme cuz it really makes me focused, provided i am muggin alone in the lib. lol.

Gonna finish integration later, left with 3 more questions. Den read bio, den chiong pw. yup, late night muggin today, see how long my energy can last.

Gtg, shall post another day.

updates

2009-08-26T20:46:00.002+08:00

Alright i haven been updating these few days, time for updates.

Lotsa stuff happened last week and this week. First up, i wanna thank Jason siah from 09s06 for returning my laptop to the general office when he found it, i am reallie grateful to him, else i will be in a dire shape. Thanks.

Everyday is mundane to me, hw hw and more hw. Last week kids read was quite fun, though it is only 6 ppl that day, huijie and gabs were the storytellers and they were great. I am quite happy cuz the kid lutfil recognises me, and becomes more open up and not so shy anymore. ahah.

Mugged like shit during the weekend, actually not la, jus keep doing hw. Mon just knew that whole class nominated me to go for the Indian appreciation thing, alright, so the list is confirmed. Me, julian and an na will go for it. Oh and i realised ms tan is after all not so bad, at least she shows us how she did the answer, ahha. Stayed back for night study on mon, damn tedious, i jus realised i am not cut out for night study, so i can only acquire the ability of studying at home. Work producitivity was low, i cant even solve intergration questions. Damn. Thanks joel for helping me with math together with CP, ren, and a lot others online.

Tues during PE, huijie and ling rong got injured while we play hand ball, hope they are allright now, huijie case was quite worst, but now its okay. Had CCA, den took bus with the usuals home.

Today had bio spa, i think i did okay for it, not like chem. Den after sch had meeting to discuss the interhouse games held at the end of the year, sian, so much to do again. Slpt in the afternoon, so that i wil have ample time tonight to do hardcore mugging if you know wat i mean. Shit, jus realised my sore throat symtoms are back, shit.

Tml having chem short test and gp compre test, hope i do well for them. Fri having CSE test, damn it, i dun understand the fucking PLA, jus have to start muggin. Tml will be a long day, with all the bio tutorials all coming together , PW lecture on Oral presentation and PE.

TNT Vs Wu ming on sat, i hope i recover ASAP. Jiayous brothers, lets win again.

I am tired mentally, and i cannot wait for A levels to finish. Seriously.

Muggin time.